Phew… what a blogathon today. I almost spent the whole day just typing out my entries (and yet I still need to finish two more parts ^-^||).

Anyway, let me just review my own life goals back in 29 June 2005:

• Complete the basic framework for two of my sites: FelixLeong.com(personal website) and MYPPF.net (Malaysian Parapara Fantasy), which should include at least all the content inherited from my past works together with a flexible site building framework for me to update my site with ease

  Reality check: Hmm… Honestly speaking, this goal is no where from being achieved. But I’m starting on some simple projects for FelixLeong.com, as I’m trying to tackle it bit by bit.

• Learn Japanese to a level that I’m able to at least read, write …

July 2005 - Silent Progression

“But eventually as I find myself can’t even able to get rid of this pest from hindering my work, the frustrations get piled up to a point that I got extremely pissed off about it: The feeling is just like when there’s a fly buzzing around you. You know you can swat that fly, but this fly seems to show some cunningness as it avoid and dodges all your offensive attacks. Each and every time you miss it, the fly seems to grow in size, and yet no matter how hard you try, it just seems to find a way to buzz away from your attack… even worse, it seems to have fun at it as it flies around you with a sarcastic glee.” (Describing my debugging experience :p …

May 2005 - Switching Environments: Changes Abound

“…while most of the better (if not best) blogs does seem to voice out opinions towards various topics, and provide some sort of a deep analysis regarding the topic being mentioned, mine is just filled with tons and tons of questions left unanswered.” — May 7, 2005

“I really don’t like the feeling of denying myself every single time I’m trying hard to suppress my feelings. But I have to do just that in order to ensure that I don’t want to spark any unwanted drama by sticking something “hard-to-swallow” (by the perception of the society, that is)in their throats.” — May 20, 2005

“it does came to me that in times of doubt, some parts of the foundation of our own self perception starts to be …

March 2005 - Stress And Sickness

“Looking back into those two years, it’s like… a lot of things had happened, and I have been through all the most extreme ups and downs that I had in life. And now I’m just sitting here, feeling a sense of calmness which I would never expect.” — March 16, 2005

“There were times when you just have to accept the fact that some wounds would take a longer time to heal.” — March 21, 2005

“梦醒之后，才发现你以前给我的那毫无防备的微笑。这时才猛然发觉…我爱你的，就是你那一份纯真。” (After I woke up from my dream, only I realised that defenceless smile of yours. Only then I suddenly realised… what I love about you, is the simpleness in you.) — March 27, 2005

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Nothing much to say about this month as I spent more time working rushing on …

It’s this time of the year again, it’s just a good time to review what’s happening in my life as recorded in my LJ. Say it like a summary of sorts, and I have tagged some extra posts, particularly I have expanded some posts into the impromptu section.

Anyway, 2005 has been a very exciting year for me as I find myself changed quite a lot during this period. A lot of joy, laughter, blood and tears happened, and it was quite a turbulent year for myself as I have experienced both the peaks and the valleys in life. But it really made me being able to realise a lot of things that I have overlooked in the past, that as much isn’t a bed of roses, it wasn’t a …

I just want to keep this posted as a public declaration of commitment on my part, as well as a reminder of my own goals that I wanted to achieve in the future:

As much as I have to admit that I am anxious of the change that this plan will brought forth, and that I fear that the plan will not work the way that I intended it to be, I have a strong faith in myself that I am able to do whatever necessary, in a way that it’ll not bring harm to others, to achieve the things that I pursue, and that I’ll commit totally to whatever responsibilities that I had on hand now (including, but not limiting to, work, family, friends, etc.) as well as those brought forth as …

It’s been a while that I haven’t did this, and there’s another 6 left pending in my queue… Honestly I don’t know, probably because the events are too recent that I would like to let them sink in for a while. But judging the fact that 7 is my lucky number, well, I might as well do with some distraction before I napped… AGAIN.

July 2004 — I’ve Been Seeing Cherry Blossom’s Blooming

“Maybe I’m starting to grow up myself, and getting better in learning how to recover from situations like this.” — July 6, 2004

Main Events

• Got a PayPal account, then buy stuff over eBay for the first time… then the rest spells “Major Cash Outflow” 😛
• Bought from CDJapan 😄
• Still on CODS 😛
• Met Eric, whom I considered one …

June 2004 — Walking Proud

“… because it’s seems easy for us to say that it’s OK to be alone and love is optional, but desire always arise to disprove that statement.” — June 6, 2004

Main Events

• Befriended Choon Hui
• … which, in turn, found my own true love (albiet one-sided). Well, at least the person whom I love the most
• Starts to coin the term CODS: Crush Over-Dwelling Syndrome XDDD.
• Starting to translating a hell of of stuff from Chinese to English, and currently became one of my hobbies 😛
• Completed my PPP video series (at least the numbered ones =3)
• Quoting myself: “Idiot Homework Sellers Making Advertisement Publicly”. I REALLY hope this is only a prank

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June has to be the coolest month in 2004 ^^. Well… honestly speaking this person Choon Hui has pretty …

May 2005 — In a Shopping Spree

“Sometimes I just wondered though: are dreams something that reflects a person’s desires and feelings?” — May 31, 2004

Main Events

• Back from Penang trip, and being robbed for the first time ever
• Got my first loan installment
• Got SEB110 <333 (and many J-Euro CDs)
• Read Fruit Basket for the first time (and has become my favourite manga ever)
• Got myself a laser printer and a hell lot of other stuff
• Fall my face hard in terms of relationship

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May is pretty much like a shopping spree month for me, seeing how many things I have bought on that month itself. Yeah… Reminded me that that month is the time when I got my first installment of my loan money. That… pretty much reflects how bad my spending …

April 2004 — When Drama Unfolds, It Might Be A Good Thing As Well

“It’s like… we are the observers of our own life, anticipating something, a goal, perhaps, to happen.” — April 11, 2004

Main Events:

• Caught up with orange juice addiction (which pretty much means that I’m addicted to anything citrus :p)
• Nine/Phil/Nine… whatever XDD became my PPS friend, and still will be the most enjoyable Internet friend I had (well… as much as I would say that we didn’t talk much, but I really enjoyed his stuff :3)
• Become much more active in Parapara: in terms of dance performance… umm, practice would be a better word :p, and choreography 😊
• Completed MYPPF -The Animation- and the response is a blast! 😄
• Have my first taste of online relationships… but apparently it …