Poem: When The Temporal Is As Beautiful As A Flower
You gave me so much courage
It’s really hard for me to cry
You gave me so much happiness
It’s really hard for me to feel sad
You gave me so much strength
It’s really hard for me to show my pain
… I see you
smiling back at me
The very same smile you had all the while
And yet it wasn’t the same smile that I used to know…
…I see you…
So close, yet so distant
As if your eyes are telling me
“My job is done”
I seem to hear your silent voice
Saying to me softly…
That I’m already able
To be on my own
I seem to notice your eyes
Telling me kindly…
That I’ll be there… watching you
To be happy and alive …
Poem + Prose: The Second (Yet Undelivered… Again) Letter
Nothing happened today, just study study study study study… You get the idea. The library is much livelier though with a larger gang of friends to study together. 😊 Then… what else, met Rachael and Choon Hui today… And for some reason I feel like I did something really stupid to them both today >.<”, nothing major though.
Ah~ Just random ramblings, I would say :p. Anyway, I wrote this the other day and it is intended to be posted up in our forums, but on second thought, I think I just keep it up here.
第二封（也是交不出去的）信
＊前言＊
[点选歌曲：ayumi hamasaki’s A Song for XX (from A Song for XX)]
暗恋一个人，总是充满不少快乐，遐想与心酸。在一个幻想的国度中，和他在一起的未来永远都是完美甜蜜的。
但是，现实永远都是幻想的放大版。当小小的细节要被顾虑到的时候，往往会觉得现实与幻想会差太多了。就因为如此，难免心中会产生不少酸意。
表白或许是最好的解脱吧！但那还需要蛮大的勇气吧！
当一个人喜欢上另一个有了对象的人，这回事更是难上加难了。用写的或许会比较容易吧！但即使只是短短几句，间中隐藏的含义往往超越了表面上的字迹。
结果还是没勇气把它交出去。信的内容如下：
＊第一（二）封信＊
致____ …
Continue Reading (713 words, 3 minute read)Poem: The Trap Within The Stars
Well… Getting A BEST is definitely a bad idea: it made me all sentimental all of a sudden XDDD. Great compilation CD <333.
Anyway, just wrote this… originally in Chinese (wow! It’s been YEARS I have written Chinese), for those who understand Chinese, click here:
星空のTRAP
何时又跌入单恋的陷阱
何时又扮演受伤的角色
一心想要脱离
那反复不停的剧本
再重新再来过的我
为何又让我发现了你？
孤单的夜里
总是习惯了孤单的
被遥远的星星围绕
还记得小时候吗？
人家说向流星许愿
会得到幸福的哦！
我的梦想就好像这样
在星空中编织
希望有那一天那一颗
幸运星降临
自从何时
我把你编织在那星空中？
明知道你是那么的靠近
却让我感到那么的遥远？
何时又跌入单恋的陷阱
何时又扮演受伤的角色
一心想要脱离
那反复不停的剧本
再重新再来过的我
为何又让我发现了你？
在那喧哗的都市
总是习惯了孤单的
和过路人檫肩而过
还记得那时候吗？
人家说在繁华的都市里
会有和你命中注定的人哦！
我的梦想就好像这样
在星空中编织
希望有那一天那一颗
幸运星降临
自从何时
我会在意你的存在？
明知道你有了别人
却让我感到心酸？
自从何时
我会为了你流了不少泪？
明知道和你一起有可能
却让我感到那么的无力尝试？
何时又跌入单恋的陷阱
何时又扮演受伤的角色
一心想要脱离
那反复不停的剧本
再重新再来过的我
为何又让我发现了你？
我的梦想就好像这样
在星空中编织
或许完美的你
比较适合在那星空中飘舞
但是…
我还是
希望有那一天那一颗
幸运星降临
你…会降临于我吗…？
For the rest of you who don’t, here’s a English translation (I did polish it a little):
The Trap Within The Stars
Since when I fall …
Continue Reading (511 words, 3 minute read)Poem: Hangin’ on
It’s a dark and rainy morning today, well… not a good sign when you have to walk to school. Anyway, creativity just struck and I drafted this one. This might not of any real poetic value (well… I personally didn’t like it that much), but I suppose I just post up to share:
Hangin’ On
“Hang on there!”
I hear your whispers around me
Slowly I opened my weary eyes
Seeing nothing but my own illusions…
I have been clinging on this cliff… helpless
So long that my past is fading away from me
I have been trying to recall
those fading memories when I was small
The time when I believed in dreams…
“Hang on there”
I hear your whispers around me again
I knew it wasn’t real
Yet I’m …
Poem: Dreaming Awake
Dreaming Awake
“Today is just another day,”
I said to myself just like every other day
Since when I hated to open my eyes
And continue with my dreamy state?
Countless time I had fallen
Yet countless time I’m able to stand up
Since when I’m afraid to fall down
Although the next pain is getting less painful every time?
I feel that I’m living a lie
Where all my true self are in hides
Since when I have been ignoring the emptiness inside
And acted as if everything is fine?
Every time I wanted you to be my side
Yet every time you get closer I get further
Is it that I wanted to be that way?
Or is it that I’m afraid to be hurt again?
Please tell me …
Continue Reading (306 words, 2 minute read)Poem: Helpless: A Cry For Help
Just for the stress relief, here’s something for your reading pleasure:
Helpless: A Cry For Help
As if planets are revolving around me
It seems like everything around me is twirling
As I close my eyes and hope that this will stop
It didn’t
Everything is swirling inside as well
Every time when people ask me how do I do
I just answered that I’ve been juggling with too much work
As I tried to let them go and hope that this will stop
It didn’t
It’s seems that I’m the one being juggled
As if the force of gravity has increase its strength
It seems that I can barely walk with my legs planted on the ground
As I tried to sit down and hope that I can …
Poem: Together and Apart
Enough for my sadistic poems… I wrote this after I piece my fragmented thoughts towards what happened to a friend which I won’t be naming here, but if you know that you’re the one being mentioned (I know you knew), this piece is dedicated to you, specially. Sorry I had been a friend with the curse of fragmented thoughts (even the poem reads a little bit fragmented while I’m reading this), sorry I had been a didn’t process feelings soon enough to give any comfort, sorry I had been so far away… (And I’m terribly sorry if I picked the wrong words for this poem -_-“, my vocabulary is so limited I just don’t know what to write at times)
Other than that, this is also dedicated to all …
Continue Reading (601 words, 3 minute read)Poem: Parallel Loners
Every time I close my eyes
I see you… hurt…
Ever since when we are walking in parallel?
And why the distance between us is always far apart?
Every time I see you
You act like nothing happened
But deep down I still can sense
The bleeding in your heart
How many times when I close my eyes
I saw you hurt?
Ever since when we declare as friends
But never ever being close like one?
How many times I see you
I was holding back from calling you?
Perhaps I might be losing hope for many failed attempts
To get your attention
Every time I close my eyes
I see you… fading…
Ever since when my memories about ourselves are dissolving
And my feelings towards you are vanishing?
Every time I see you
You …
Poem: Music Box (And a few random thoughts)
Prelude
I remembered… the time we first met
When my eyes are focused on you
And hearing your crystal like voice
The storekeeper said you are special
But care must be taken
Because once broken
It’s hard to repair
Harder to replace
But I never noticed
What I heard was your charming song…
Progression
I remember… the time we finally be together
When my eyes are focused on you
And you’re sitting there, being silent
I gently wind you up
And you let out ticking sounds
As if you are telling me something
It’s hard to understand
Harder to feel what you are feeling
But I never noticed
What I heard was your charming song…
Interlude
I remembered… the time we had spent together
When my eyes are focused on you
And …
Poem: Connected
Connected
It seems like we are living in two dimensions
Where you and I are never destined to be together
Yet sometimes life is often unpredictable
I noticed you through a flux of void
There, I saw you
Vague as it seems, it seems so real
Through that window you seemed so close
I thought you were here
Happy time we had together
I never knew that I’m able to find someone
Who I feel destined to be with me
Yet hopes can be fragile
Reality strikes
The void has disappeared
And you are never to be seen… again
And I was left there…. waiting
Through times I was hurt
Again and again
Still clinging on
Yet I never knew that we are not destined to meet
Is it that what brought us together …
Continue Reading (234 words, 1 minute read)
