A lot of things happen around me when I’m unaware. I doesn’t involve me but then seeing the things revolving around the closest people concerns me.

A time when you’ll get to see that your surrounding good or bad, bubbles up and burst in front of your eyes. Uncertainty and constant change happens every single day. A dream attained can get burst like a bubble, and yet the agony of emotional torture can also be blown away by a calming breeze.

From time to time, I seem to fidget with unease… is it fear? Anxiety? Excitement? Bliss?

Closing my eyes, everything comes and goes. Reflecting back on myself, all clinging seems to me like a fear in disguise. How much certain I am that I’ll still have the things I have …

When I started to get interested with learning languages, my first thought was that “After learning the language, I’m going to be able to understand all the movies, musics, comics and everything else” (i.e. entertainment).

However, having my aunt’s Japanese friend staying over here, I only realised that learning a language isn’t a very glamorous ideal, in fact the point of learning and appreciating a language is, in contary, a very simple and plain affair: it’s all about being able to communicate of a different culture in their everyday life. It’s like… learning how to communicate in order to survive in a new culture, provide a means to understand each other, as well as enhancing your own living in that environment. All these little pleasures come by all the …

Originally posted as a comment, but I believe it’s worth mentioning here:

I’m not entirely sure whether I interpreted “overcritical” correctly (but assuming that comes from your more direct style of communication you had with people either when people pour their problems out to you, or that you can’t agree on one’s action/decision about something)

If I’m correct at my definition, I personally perceive that it’s not much of a big problem actually, as you said that it’s only miscommunication that causes it. It will happen in one way or the other.

Coming back, basically being direct in your communication doesn’t make you a less nuturing or perfect friend. Well… or probably “being direct” doesn’t make your friends misunderstood you, but I guess you get …

Originally posted as my reply to a post, but I would love to share this with everybody:

[:: quote from a friend ::]

今天我可能错过了一生中一次重要的机会。
 回头想想，我曾经错过很多次机会，并不是我不在意，而是没有把握好，没有珍惜，或者说是没有来得及把握，它已经从身边悄悄溜

这令我又想起了那句经典的台词：
 曾经有一次重要的机会放在我的面前，我没有珍惜，等我失去的时候我才后悔莫及，人世间最痛苦的事莫过于此。如果上天能够给我一个再来一次的机会，我会对那次机会说：我要。如果非要在这次机会上加上一个期限，我希望是…再多一天！

同样的机会不会出现第二次，我应该怎样才能把握好下一次，才不会让它在身边悄悄走过呢

Translation:

Today I might have missed one of the most important chance in life. Looking back, I had missed a lot of chances in the past, but it’s not that I didn’t mind at all, but it’s that I never grasp these chances well, never treasured them; or should I say that by the time I wanted to grab it, the chance has already slipped away.

This reminds me of these classic words again: There was a time that an important chance is being placed in front of me …

I just watched Bicentennial Man just now and I just can’t stop feeling touched from end to end.

Anyway, just to spare you the story synopsis (I believe it’s not hard to find that DVD, rent or buy), I just go straight to the questions and thoughts that I would love to share. Honestly I won’t say much here, I believe reading between the lines of the dialogue and just watching the movie itself would give enough room to come out with a lot of thoughts and interpretation.

The first thing that came to mind is… what is it really like to be human? What is actually the good thing about being human in the first place? What is actually the purpose of being in existence…? … there’s just a lot of …

Somehow I just feel as if everything is different, and yet everything is still the same.

I don’t know, there’ll be some definite changes in my life. I’ll be having my room all by myself again next week, that’s the most major one. My results will be out sometime in mid-June (I guess), and I wonder how I fared…

In the cycle of emotional calm and chaos, a sense of peacefulness seems to assure me that everything should be OK, no matter what comes.

There are a lot of things that I doubt about myself, there are a lot of things that I don’t understand about myself… as I just stare at the blue sky on the top of my head.

I kept wondering… what my future goes? Where am …

To be honest, today’s drifting thoughts post isn’t totally brought by me in the first place. Actually most of the points here are presented by Theen Gee when he was talking to someone else and his words really caught me because he really manage to crystallise this thought so well, and it really captures my attention since I agree with it totally. Anyway, basically what I have typed here is my own interpretation of the same thing (and should not be confused as what he actually said because his presentation is totally different from mine) and I’m just typing it in just to contain it before I forget it totally.

Anyway, in continuation with my short drifting thoughts post, I do mention about something regarding putting on extra unnecessary layers on top …

It does seems that I have been pondering a lot during the past few days (which is obviously noticable with the number of drifting thought entries that I have posted), and some really interesting points seems to surface out from these.

And what interest me more is the comments that is posted in these entries, as I found out that little nuggets of knowledge and wisdom is being found from the active process of thinking and communicating our thoughts relating to certain issues. And that’s really a rewarding experience for all of us :).

OK… where have I drifted myself to :p. Anyway, just wanted to say that do check out the comments in my previous entries as there is some really good comments from people and I have extended some of my entries by …

After some big (probably) thoughts about the concepts of good and bad/evil (refer to my previous entry regarding Final Fantasy 8), all I can say is that the more I think about it, the more clueless I am about the most simplest things that I have taken for granted all this while. I think I’ll just leave it as that because my thoughts are getting way too complicated for me to comprehend at the moment.

Somehow it just came to me is that probably the seeking of the true meaning of life is actually discovering our own unique underlying principles in living, as well as being able to make sound judgements towards our own actions, take full responsibility for it and live blissfully with the consequences that we have brought into our own …

Of Final Fantasy 8

For one thing: I have found myself sucked into Final Fantasy 8 addiction again. I almost spend the whole day today just playing one of my favourite RPGs again. But of course, I’m still relying on the strategy guide to play the game :p.

But speaking of strategy guide, somehow I do pick up interest in re-reading the analysis of the complex plot. And considering how much that the game (purposely, I believe) left out a lot of specific details in certain areas, the speculated theories of the game is really interesting to read as we see different people dissect events and clues to come out with their own viewpoint regarding the game. And just by reading that, one part seems to catch my attention:

The one thing that really …