If the feeling of missing someone is just pure sadness, then dealing with and getting out of it would be very easy. It’s just like any other sadness: just find the source and decide what’s the best course of action to deal with it.

But as we know it, the feeling of missing someone is far deeper and multi-dimensional: depending on our experiences with the personal and our level of attachment with him/her, the feeling itself takes on other tinge of flavours – sweetness, joy, happiness, bitterness, fear, admiration…

It sometimes feels like a roller coaster ride: at times I feel like I was in cloud nine as I recall the sweetness of our encounters, and within one split second a deep sorrow sinks in and your physical absence further fuels my hunger …

I’m always under the impression that as each of us are unique individuals with varying experiences in life, we often have our own views, biases, understanding and assumptions when it comes to the world around us. And depending on our eloquence in expressing ourselves, we also have varying degrees of success when it comes to communicating with people. Especially when having two individuals from extremely divergent “worlds”, the demands of communications skills are far greater than one may be used to as compared to hanging around with really close friends.

It has been quite a long while ever since I had the habit of musing: letting my thoughts drift and experiment with philosophical ideas within the confines of my own worldview. And occasionally I end up gaining certain radical hypotheses in my worldview that …

As you are reading this, I’d probably attended a friend’s wedding back into my hometown - as I had scheduled this post a few days back.

As I’m writing this, it really reminds me of the early days when I started my web log back in LiveJournal. And that was the time when I post pretty much on a daily basis on what’s going on with my life and all the thoughts that had been wandering in my head for sometimes.

And at times when people whom I haven’t met for a long time starts to ask me how am I doing, I usually answer them with a slight bit of pride that they can always read my blog and proceed to gave them the URL. And I can’t really …

At the ripe age of 27, I’m only starting to feel the transition into adulthood: a time when friends around me are starting to have their own families. Together with that, the responsibility not only to yourself but the livelihood of the ones dependent on you.

And as we progress in life, inevitably our signatures carries more and more weight - with each stroke of the pen could potentially bind you into bigger and bigger responsibilities. Mainly legal documents that not only declares the proper ownership but also together with it the unknown opportunities and burdens that arise from such properties.

Imagine this: employment contracts, marriage registration documents, S&P to your new home, loan documents…

And that being human, some of us (myself included) have the fear of potential loss - a psychological barrier that …

Recently I have been initiating several personal projects on my own that there’s just a lot of hustle and bustle as I zoom from one work to the other. It has been a while I was this jacked up in getting something done, so actually I enjoyed what I’m experiencing at the moment even there are extremely frustrating times.

Anyway, two things that I have been working on for the past month and am still working on them:

1. MutualTracker.com is a Malaysian Unit Trust/Mutual Fund tracking website, which at the moment only let you check historical prices and play with interactive price charts of Public Mutual funds. Eventually I’ll be keeping track of more unit trust funds in Malaysia and come up with tools and calculators that would let you …

Direct marketers, who doesn’t like to hate them? In many ways they are “spamming” your time in attempts in trying to sell you something random that you may have not known that you had a need for but decided not wanting them anyway. Like business opportunities in direct marketing or insurance¹. And the worse part of this technology is that there’s no spam filters attached to phones.

Usually the ones that I personally find really obnoxious are the ones whom just plainly refuse to state their intentions upfront and are hellbent to go through the whole script of dubious questions to bait into agreeing with him – and then goes on with a barrage of reasons why I would want whatever that he sells. What’s worse? The ones that either doesn’t …

Having the reading habit, a bookmark is the indispensable must-have. And recently I find that my business card make good bookmarks.

It used to be whatever scrap paper that I conveniently picked up whenever I started the book and it’d typically be receipts of whichever restaurant that I happen to be at that time. But honestly speaking, receipts were never attractive in the first place, other than the fact that the strip of paper have lots of note taking space that up until now I’d never bothered to use.

It started off as a habit of convenience as I picked up my business card and slip in between the pages. And it later dawn on me that it is just perfect for that purpose. Business cards are stiff enough that it’s quite …

Being human, we are bound to feel disappointed sometimes. Some that we could sleep over it, and some so devastating that it’s hard not to feel completely torn. And to some (myself included), we just couldn’t help but being swamped by such desperation.

Facing such an obstacle in front of us, it may be easy to feel despair and helpless. That’s just how we were wired, I guess – sometimes when we have our eyes so set on what we wanted, our focus became so narrow that we couldn’t see the surroundings and realities that was slightly beyond the narrow perimeter of our sights.

Probably that’s how life give us reminders – once faced with a dead-end, it forces us to set our sights on the present reality, take a few steps …

(Pardon the language; sometimes I have to resort to crude exaggeration to get the point across)

I have a confession to make: I’m starting to notice my addiction for social sites. Mainly Facebook and Twitter. There’s just something about these two sites really. I’d personally would say that they are like sirens which seduces Internet surfers who pass by their territory, drawing them into a blackhole that sucks out the time and energy out of them.

I’m not condemning these two sites by all means, in fact I appreciated the fact they do open up a window of opportunity to get access into the minds, knowledge and social interactions of people I find interesting and admirable.

Just needed to remind myself as common sense goes: take everything in moderation.

In light of the H1N1 outbreak that has been going on for months, it sort of reminded me of an old cartoon that I’d drawn for my own amusement years back (probably also for some kind of a reminder myself).