Letting go means one of the two things: Either admitting your defeat or that you give out your all in achieving something.

Either way, it’s probably something that comes by force; but by the totality of one’s realisation.

It’s much easier to be sleeping than to be awake…

即使问自己多少个“为什么“，也无法否认自己所”渴望“的东西。

No matter how many “why’s” I asked myself, I’m unable to deny what I really “desired”.

A bright world? A dark world? I thought they are indeed the same world, then why there’s a separation between the two?

Upon attaining something, you’ll lose something in return. From that hypothesis, upon attaining the ultimate, or that all wishes has been fulfilled, a “death” is certain.

“别人一定比我更好”，一向以来都存有这样一个观念。或许就是因为这个观念，好多时候觉得自己所做的一切都是徒劳…然后渐渐演变成逃避，畏缩。

生活开始失去了色彩，做事开始失去了自信，开始不敢去冒险改变：这样的我…虽然十分厌烦，但却无意识下接受。接受一个充满垃圾的世界…这真的是自己真的想要的吗？

这，或许是自己曾经不愿意承认的事实吧！

“Others must be better than me”, all this while I have been having such a perception. Maybe it’s because of this perception, a lot of times I felt that all the effort I put into anything was just pointless… And therefore it started to became avoidance, timidity.

Life starting to lose its colours, I start to lose my own confidence, becoming less and less brave to take risks and change: This particular “self”… Although I despise it, but unconsciously I accepted that myself. Accepting a world full of crap… is this really something that I wanted?

This fact, is probably what I used not to like to admit it at all.

Probably the real message behind “I don’t understand you” is “you didn’t do something that I hoped/wished/expected”.

或许，自己从某些层面来说都在期待着一个“意外”吧。

Maybe, from a certain perspective I’m am still expecting an “accident”.

真正属于自己的“财富”，到底是什么呢？

What is a “wealth” that is truly mine?

Saying “I’m fine…”, is it a phrase of encouragement oneself, or is it just a useless way of consolation?