其实就是那样，那说不出来的自私。

The reality is that, that inexpressible selfishness.

Once I reached… only death is certain.

Whenever a thought or judgement is formed and chosen, indirectly its contradiction will be accepted as well, which there’s no willingness to accept it.

Therefore, the beginning of a conflict.

害怕孤单，害怕失去，害怕死亡…想想自己一向都在害怕着这些“必然”。

这种感觉是多余无谓的吗？或许“真正的解脱”就在一念之间吧！

Afraid of loneliness, afraid of losing (something), afraid of death… Think about it, I have always afraid of these “inevitables”.

Is this feeling redundant and purposeless? Maybe “the real salvation” is just a will away!

What is it?
That trembling in me
A dilemma
Of a burning desire

我还在这里…因为我还有不要放弃的理由。

I’m still here… because I still have a reason not to give up.

There are some things that only I can do, and there are some things that only others can help me fulfill.

No matter how hard I wanted to hold onto something, sooner or later I’ll still have to let go: A departure to reach a place where nobody can go on my behalf.

Desires and memories from the distant past which has yet to be fulfilled completely… feelings of the nearest past (present?) which has yet to be answered… blended together into a complexity of emotions….

What is it that I’m feeling now?

或许…自己也晓得自己的那一道防线已经开始崩裂：以后会发生些什么，自己也不晓得吧。

Maybe… I already knew that that protective wall of mine has already started to crumble: What will happen next, that’s something even I myself can’t forsee.