Impromptu: The Other
或许是因为有“别人”的存在，所以才会让自己倍感寂寞吧…？
Maybe it’s because “others” exists, we make ourselves feel lonelier…?
Impromptu: Chain Reaction
有时，自己在想着…暗恋，是不是一个连锁反应现象？
Sometimes, I’m thinking… is secret admiration a chain reaction phenomenon?
Portfolio: In Hues of Blue — Blueprint
Here’s a blueprint of the final LJ layout:
The colors are painstakingly hard to pick, as it’s really hard to create some warmth with blue alone. But luckily some white, teal and indigo (?) and toned-down contrast helped to ignite the warmth in the design. I didn’t use much pictures though :/, I wonder whether this will make it too flat since there aren’t much texture in it. (Or should I think positive and call it minimalistic? XD) Studying the HTML structure of my layout does make it look easy for me to apply this as soon as possible :).
As for my day, I’m still hovering with the thoughts yesterday, still trying to reposition myself somewhat… Well… at least this is much more easier than the CODS (Crush Over-Dwelling (Dependent? :p) Syndrome …
Continue Reading (177 words, 1 minute read)Impromptu: Jealousy
看着身边的人开心与幸福…其实我心中，有一点点羡慕…有一点点嫉妒…
心中渴望得到的东西…到现在还是很想得到…
Even now, I still wished that I’m able to have… what I desired for deep down…
Seeing the people surrounding me being happy… to be honest, deep inside my heart, I’m feeling a bit admired … a little bit jealous…
Question of The Day: Trying Too Hard
Is it that I’m trying too hard? Or is it that I have unconsciously set a impractically high standard upon myself?
And that’s NOT the first time I have asked this question. It seems that I’m now having two opposing thoughts clashing with each other, and that really drains me out sometimes.
Somehow the line between my big picture of life and my own illusions/dreams has somewhat blurred to a point that I really don’t know how to differentiate between them. And what’s worse is that I have completely no idea what is happening that I really can’t differentiate between what is the truth and what is only my own perception of things.
Summary: I really feel out of place — feeling left out, in a way.
Impromptu: Barrier
There’s always barriers that clouds your vision towards true understanding, and breaking the one created by yourself will remove the first layer of understanding everything.
Impromptu: Frequency
加速的心跳，似乎在扫描着你的频率——总是希望在杂讯中寻找你的声音。
但似乎还是没法锁定好吧！因为在你身边，至今都还没跟到你的节奏。
The accelerating heartbeat, seems to scan for your frequency — Always wishing that I’m able to find your voice from the surrounding noise.
But it seems that I’m still unable to lock it down! Because everytime being by your side, I’m still unable to follow your rhythm.
Impromptu: Happiness
总是含着泪水悄悄的祝福你，希望你幸福。
现在猛然发觉到：“幸福”的真正意思…到底是什么？
原来才发现到自己连“幸福”的定义也不晓得——才发现那份祝福也只是如此的表面虚幻。
才发现我原来根本都没有真正去了解你。
Always having tears welling in my eyes, I made a silent prayer, wishing that you’ll happy.
Now I suddenly notice that: What is the real meaning of “happiness”?
Only that I notice that I don’t even understand the real meaning of “happiness” myself — only that I notice that wish of mine is just shallow and illusionary.
Only I notice that I never actually tried to understand you.
Question of The Day: Anguish
Is it really that important to get everything my way? Is it really that great that nothing bad happens?
Why the frustration? Is it that I’m unable to achieve what I wanted? Or is it that I’m feeling the anguish of how the external factors are out of my control?
Is it because that I feel defeated? Or is it that I’m swallowing the sour grape while I take no action to get what I wanted?
What is the difference between one’s desires and one’s life long goals? What’s the real meaning of hope…?
Somehow I’m feeling schizophrenic: As I feel like what I act differs from what I think/feel in my heart, especially those that involves the things that I cared for the most. Sometimes I …
Continue Reading (166 words, 1 minute read)Question of The Day: Lines Of Thought
I just seems that the more I read self-help books, the more I find that they underlying meaning of all these books are the same: The difference found only in terms of context and expression.
However, the intrudging thought is that… Are those “truths” are timeless principles, truth, reality, natural laws or whatever you wish to call it; or are they just only my own interpretation of these expression with my own frame of reference…?
