~ #3 ~

Running away
On a lost path
Without an end
in sight

A unknown shadow
Creeping;
An instinct
“to escape from…?”

~ #2 ~

Remembering
A distant past
with a vision
so bright

A weary soul
Limping;
Forgotten
“that I’m trying”

~ #1 ~

Approaching
The ominous shadow
with a terror
unable to subside

A frozen pair of eyes
staring;
timidly asking
“What is it”

~ #0 ~

Engulfing,
or so it seemed
Yet left nothing
in sight

A clueless soul
Trembling;
Forgetting
“….”

The reason these businesses could thrive is because I have the potential to afford them.

(Thought arise when I was passing through high-end, classy and premium branded stores, of which everything carries a mind-blowing price tag… for the time being)

all but leaving with just a hope, with its guiding light will lead me to paradise

there’s times,
when one is almost inconsolable
engulfing heart throbs
a strong pain from within

looking up at the stars
with teary eyes
alone on the street
a sense of loneliness from within

reaching out of a mirage of you
a close smiling face that
could never be reached
a painful yearning from within

calling out your name
only echoes of my own helplessness
rings back to me
who’s going to answer back to me?

oh, wishing star
where could you be
at this moment of complete despair?
a darkness that cannot be dispelled
by millions of stars far away

was becoming strong
the only answer to continue on?
yet i felt as if hope alone
will never be a float
keeping me from drowning

despite a pride
that will never accept
yet …

Probably it’s because all the while I have been on my side of the fence that I could never comprehend further and beyond.

The thing about the paradox of love is that everyone seemed wanting assurance, but once one gained the greatly misunderstood type of “assurance”, it’s never love anymore.

… so do you think you understood love? I know I don’t anymore. 😊

A year and a half has passed, the draft that was left dusting for a year…

Putting the missing pieces together and a whole new chapter was born, with hopes that one day I could finally assemble another big part of my own puzzles in life.

Chapter 5: My Way Home

June 2006

Throughout my journey, I have gained much, I have lost much as well.
Threading the path, I have loved much, I have hated much as well.

Through the time and tide, sometimes I felt lost, yet sometimes I was found
Through the faces and places, sometimes I was blind, yet sometimes I can see

The many things around me,
The many secrets within me,
In one way or the other
Unlocked some of the doors,
Unlocked some of the chains

The many …

不愿说出的心声，慢慢累积的成为了许许多多的问号。开始怀疑了，在心中里你那个影像中树立了一份犹如虚幻的寄托。心跳的频率不稳定的当时，一直试问着自己：这真的是爱吗？在仰慕，爱慕与被吸引的情绪中徘徊，是否只当你是朋友，会让心中的纠缠平复呢？

试探不到一个答案，那一份挫折感还不时地让自己有了放弃的念头。

其实，连自己也不晓得的是：自己想要的是你的守护，纯真的爱还是纯粹是你的人而已。

故事，依然重复着。

许许多多的幻想每次充满不同的变化，想要的东西每天不同。

但似乎让幻想停顿的时候，开始看到，那重叠的影像。

The myriad of dreams, painted with different shades and patterns every single time, just as one’s desires changing and evolving every single time.

But it seemed that once the dream was put on a halt, that I started to see, that overlapping image.

有时很单纯的心情，虽然只用几句话可以描述表面；内在的感触却如此的深奥多彩，此时的心情真的无法用言语表达.