Been staying in the lab for hours @_@”. Ugh… which is OK since at least I get a decent Internet connection here, it’s kinda noisy though, but that’s OK until my iPod ran out of juice.

Flashing back, yesterday have been a really bad day for me. Everything just doesn’t work out… and as small those matters can be, the disappointment is so depressing that I really feel like a failure, and feeling like a total failure sucks. Just feeling all energy, motivation and passion being drained to a point that everything is not worth doing. I really feel like crying, it’s really that depressing, but I just can’t get my tears out no matter how hard I tried.

For some reasons, one of Coach Vee’s comment just flashes …

Let’s see…

• Get my USB stuff work on my aunt’s compie so that I can connect my USB drive over there
• Set the network so that I can transfer the files over my compie
• Pray that all my software works >.> (especially the assignment critical ones)

My LJ is getting some attention from my coursemates, which really puts me in an odd situation. >.> I don’t know whether it’s a good thing. Anyway, it’s just a place to dump my thoughts anyway. (which I can’t do much since my brain is flooded with disaster plans)

Starting to sense some homophobes running around lately, which really made me wonder what wrong with me with my bisexuality anyway? But the news Steven told me today made me chuckle 😛 (I might consider putting some …

This weekend is a totally exciting week for me… all for the wrong reasons >.<”

In case anyone notice that the daily update have halted for two days… deep breath…

MYLAPTOPDIEDMYINTERNETCONNECTIONREFUSESTOCOOPERATEWITHMEONEASSIGNMENTDUEDONSATURDAYWHICHIDON’TEVENBEABLETOHANDUPANOTHERASSIGNMENTISDUEDONMONDAY(READ:TODAY)ANDIHAVETOTALLYDONENOTHINGABOUTITANDTHERE’SANOTHERBIGASSIGNMENTDUEDONWEDNESDAYANDMYLAPTOPWILLONLYBEBACKINTWOWEEKSTIMEWORST:IHAVETOMISSTHEATHEN’SOLYMPICOPENINGANDMYLIFEISTOTALLYMESSEDUPTOTHEMAX!!!!!!!!!!!!FUDGETHATBLACKFRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

phew…

OK, my life is in total chaos, nothing life shattering, but still it’s annoying. There.

But at least I got myself a new cam… if that’s any consolation. Be posting up pictures soon ^^.

The opening ceremony is tonight! ❤ Can’t wait to catch the live telecast on TV tonight ^^.

But there’s one assignment due tomorrow >.>… whatever, guess I have to multitask tonight ^^”. What else… just being random, CD jewel cases are extremely fragile. Period.

I need a life…

[:: SIDENOTE ::] Oh yeah! avex just post up a full sample of Ayumi’s “Because of You” from ARENA TOUR 2003~2004. It’s really cool, so check it out:

http://www.avexnet.or.jp/ayu/arenatour_live_distrbution.html

In case you want to download the video, get NetTransport (freeware) and download from these links (Basically I just got it off from their asx files :p):

56K version (File: 3MB): mms://202.8.30.155/ayu/56.wmv 500K version: mms://202.8.30.155/ayu/500k.wmv 1M version (File: 50MB): mms://202.8.30.155/ayu/1m.wmv

(p/s: could someone get the 1M version for me? ^^” Apparently I can’t download that file from school)

Just a quickie:

• Rushed, but feeling positive for no apparent reasons
• One assignment deadline postponed, which is a-good-thing…
• … but there’s other assignments to worry about
• Feeling like dedicating Lolita’s Thinking of You to Choon Hui today (and apparently I liked the para as well ^^)
• Aunt Kim Hong just got a administration job in our library, which I do have mixed feelings about it… but most of it being positive
• … and my mom’s right about her absent-mindedness being worse than I do
• … and wasted five hours to accompany her to do stuff (medical checkups and what-nots)… which is a bad thing when you have assignments on the borderline
• Have lasagna for the first time… I just feel it tasted kinda weird… Maybe I should try that in a real Italian restaurant
• Got myself …

Took me about a whole day to make sure that the layout works for every single browser (at least the new and popular ones), anyway, feedback is welcomed!

Now I just need to code the backend codes…

Nothing much except for the extreme urge to scream out of my lungs (read: assignments). Just to recap:

• Just got my haircut, and it turns out to be pretty good 😊
• The Lolita Try Me Album should be in the postal service now <333
• My Ayu-ro Mix CD hasn’t arrived yet ;_____; (but then again, it’s only a week… >.> And I’m sure that I put the correct address)
• Assignments ought to be shot

Guess that’s about it.

Due to assignments, I’m not going to have a life for a few days in order to get the hell (read: assignments) out from my schedules. Ugh… I hate doing every single thing on my own when I had a group >.<”. That’s the “control-freak & giving-control” dilemma. (note: Argh! Why I always stumble at this word! note to self: should be double m‘s instead of l‘s)

But at least not all life have been sucked out from my soul, within 5 hours I’m going to win another CD =3… and Choon Hui looked great in his khaki coloured, checker-patterned shirt (since he’s usually in tees). <333 Ah… just the little things which inject some fun in life. (* I don’t think this is the right word, anyone care to improve …

Assignment is taking a toll… But then the bigger problem is my procrastination habit x_x”. Deadlines are all lined up on the Friday the 13th… Umm… o_o”, well, I have faith that things will go good anyway, minus good sleep.

What else… yeah, just feel somewhat unenthusiastic in everything today, I don’t know why. Perhaps I just feel all transparent today from people, and whenever I’m not transparent, the topic only revolves around assignments x_x”. I really need some sort of life back…

Things got better when I manage to chill with Choon Hui, as much as he has been around with his group mates discussing about assignments. Seeing him smile always makes my day, But later on… when I was in my Entrepreneur Skills tutorial class, my tutor caught me sleeping in …

Videos have been spreading around online which shows Iraqis beheading several hostages, as much these videos are disconcerting and realistic… it might be a hoax.

Read the news here: http://www.reuters.com/newsArticle.jhtml?type=topNews&storyID=5903232

Oh great… now with the Internet, it’s much more harder to know what’s the truth…