Stupid allergies with dust, moist air… and mosquito repellent X(!

Anyway, my aunt’s doing some spring cleaning at the guest room, which is rarely used. So you can imagine a musty room, vacuum cleaners… and DUST! Augh!!! >.<” And my throat isn’t feeling that well now… Well… at least my allergies are getting better lately. >.>

Now I better find a way to either get immuned to the mosquito repellent or the nasty mosquito bites.

Ever had one of those days when you feel suddenly lose your confidence on whether your actions are right or wrong, even though the things that you are concerned is pretty much trivial? Well… that pretty much sums up what I feel today.

Incidently, my touchstone card of the day is the Heirophant in reverse. Hmm…

Anyway, I decided to stay home today to catch up on stuff I left behind.

[p/s: Gah! Got to weed out those stupid tenses mistakes :p]

And so I got my Amano Tarot deck yesterday <333. So consider that as day 1 I’m trying to learn the tarot. Hmm… I’m still pretty much fumbling through the explanations of the book and stuff, and yet I can’t seem to understand them that well :p. Hmm… guess it takes a while, I suppose.

Anyway, I’m giving it a try today, and I got a Judgement/Justice card in reverse. Interesting… somewhat that really kept me thinking… But somewhat I just feel that my thoughts are pretty much controlled by my conscious thoughts that I can’t seem to notice how my subsconcious is reacting. Guess it needs some time to get the hang of it.

Other than that, I’m pretty much staying at home, trying to sort out …

Having a day to enjoy simplicity does give me quite some room to let my wander a bit.

Looking back at what had happened lately, guess it’s time for me to step back and take a good look from another perspective. That alone would have give me enough things to (re)/evaluate, consider and ponder. Sometimes I’m just a bit ashamed for my immaturity, but this is the best chance for me to do something about that.

I’m thinking of picking up tarot now, since I have been fascinated by it. Many a times it did gave me another prespective to look at things (of course, friends would still be the main sources of help 😉 ). Not to mention that I saw a deck from Yoshitaka Amano (for those who doesn’t know …

2nd friends-only thread… as a continuity of the previous one.

Only today I notice that I didn’t really want him: I need him… a lot. I thought I’m able to handle the days without him, but in reality that was my greatest fear: Something that I can’t confront no matter how hard I tried. I only notice that even I can’t be with him, I can’t risk losing him as a great friend… I only notice that how depressed I was if I ever lose him… or think about the possibilities of it.As much I say that I’m a Plan B person (since nothing planned seems to go right for me, there’s always bound to be something going really wrong anyway), this is the first time ever …

Hmm… recently definitely has seen me with some spoilt hardware, this time are the phones… well, there’re spoilt for some time though. My Sony-Ericsson T100 does suck since it’s secondhand and stuff. Not to mention I’m really bad at maintaining stuff XD. And my house phone is spoilt due to lightning strikes, so I can’t even dial any phone numbers and the ringing is more like croaking XD.

I can’t seem to get my house phone replaced though since I do need to get to their headquarters o_O”. But I just traded in my stupid handphone and got a Siemen’s CF62 instead, which is pretty cool with the rich colour screen and the Ooooh~ orange dynamic lights <333, which is much more cooler than the Nokia’s which I …

OK, the sunnier post is up, now it’s the darker things that happened to me lately. Well… not exactly dark, but it’s just not the usual stuff which I wouldn’t post up publicly due to certain reasons (more on that later).

Shock #1

OK… where should I start… I’m definitely having (sort of) an enemy now… well, I wouldn’t say it was an enemy since I don’t even know who that is in the first place… I should say he’s more like an attacker. I only knew that there’s someone who kept on saying bad things on the Internet to attack and hurt me. I have been quite stunned by the attacks made on me during the past few months, which includes:

• 1st Attempt: Attempting to flood …

Just came back from Penang safely :).

Anyway, nothing beats plain old fun with friends, Erika, Rachael, Soo Hoo, Jeeva and Stanley has been extremely fun to be with :). So we have been going to places like Penang Hill and Kek Lok Si (literally translated from Chinese as The Temple of Eternal Happiness). There is only a few tourist attractions that we went, since it kept on raining during our trip. But then again, I have visited these places already, just that Rachael haven’t been there, so it’s kinda fun taking Rachael to tour around the place. Of course we did take a lot of pictures there :), with me being kinda evil by taking tons of candid shots of the girls XD. I’m SOOO~ evil :p. (I think I’ll post some pictures …

Yay! I’m off to Penang tomorrow :). So I won’t be updating much on my LJ during my trip there, but rest assured that I keep you guys updated once I had the chance ;).

Anyway, I sent my webcam to the shop and it was found to be faulty. So I got a new webcam that works ^^. So, to translate it, that means more para videos soon :). In other news, my laser printer is fixed as well, and most probably I would get it on Monday.

Today I only notice that I can be quite insecure at times, especially in times when I feel a bit overwhelmed by misfortunes, some good nudging from Steven does helps me to notice that I can do much more despite of my own doubts. Well… at least that …

After a month or two of waiting, my LJ mind map is finally here. Phew, about time.

Anyway, according to them, the MindMap “Visualizes interrelationships within the LiveJournal community”, which is quite interesting because I still can’t figure out the pattern of how it is organized. Some said that it is arranged based on the closeness of one’s relation with the others, but somehow this claim isn’t entirely true.

Anyway, go and try it out anyway, it might take a long time to get it, but it’s worth the wait.

Order a MindMap, elect a President!

MindMap

In other news, things seems to sort themselves out all of a sudden. Which is really… surprising since I have been bothered by these trival stuff for the past few days. But saying that …