Good news: Got Internet access, bad news: Boss at my back.

So don’t expect daily updates, but I’ll post up any news once I get to my actual home.

See you guys then :).

After a few days of deep posts, guess it’s time to revert back to its normal stuff that you’ll see on my LJ :).

Anyway… Things are getting EXTREMELY busy lately, considering that I’ll be having my Numerical Analysis and Mathematics for Computer Graphics class (for those who remembered, yup, I’m retaking the only subject with a D attached to it), Japanese class, final year project and… a job! And not to mention that the job starts tomorrow and I have to work from 9-6 for three days weekly. So that also means that less time for me to fool around. And that also means that my online presence would be even thinner (Sorry Ahmed ;_;).

I’ll still be in contact with you guys, through the old-fashioned way: e-mail! 😊 For those …

I’m just happy, that’s all that matters. 😊

If an explanation is needed: I’m starting to piece up more puzzles of my thoughts. There’s a lot of remaining pieces, but I don’t mind taking my time to piece them together.

In the moment of silence, I’m starting to notice that there’s a lot of things to do, a lot of responsibility to pick up, an adventure to the unknown is starting to be embarked…

It might not cause much significance to the lifes of others of my own, but I believe through this trail will open the doors to what I seek.

This… is the beginning.

Hmm… just the typical rainy day. Nothing much happened honestly except my sluggishness.

Been reading a bit of Tarot in the Spirit of Zen, it’s been quite a while since I last read any self-help books (like… months ago?). And thus far it’s really interesting, as well as giving some time for my brain cells to jog a bit, to reflect on my own past, present and state of mind. Somewhat it’s a really wonderful experience when you just notice how much clearer you can think when you start to let go of your ego.

There’s some things in the book which seems a bit radical for me, but just to pull a quote from the book itself

“Keep what I am saying to you. Make a jeweled box for it …

For a bad start, I wasn’t feeling that well emotionally today: It’s like suddenly I have been experiencing a feeling which is indescribable. A feeling that one is not feeling good, yet it’s not totally negative either. A feeling which seems like emptiness, and yet you can still feel something in existence. A feeling so light and of less importance, yet it’s so heavy that you can feel its burden. I has not been the first time I have this kind of feeling, yet I’m still (and currently still) unable to comprehend this simple yet complex feeling.

The feeling is so hard to bear… that I just have to go out for a fresh breath of air. And as usual with my outdoor strolls, I usually have my brain triggered …

All of a sudden my determination is running down the drains… Maybe I expect too much… that things will turn better overnight. But it seems that it’s pretty much Utopian to believe in that. As much as I understand that changes in life, perspective and action would take a little time to show its effect… It’s just that… I just feel like I’m seeing myself going around in the same cycle over and over again. I really don’t want to go through all this again: It’s really painful and I swear that I don’t want to get back into deep depression.

Anyway… I’m still adjusting to the changes that happen around me. Hopefully I can get through all this.

By any chance, this might be the last friends-only post for this month.

Just after I typed my excited entry about my results, Choon Hui just happens to enter the lab.

I don’t know whether this is by sheer chance, or by his own will. But that isn’t of any importance.

He said to me… in his usual kind and friendly voice, that he wants to have a word with me. I smiled… trying to hide the fact that my heart has skipped a beat: This is the time when answers will loom upon me.

And so… I’m outside the lab, with him. Usually my heart will beat a little faster whenever he’s beside me. But today’s a bit different: all of a sudden I just feel a sense of …

My results are out… and my grades are as follows:

• Interpersonal Communication: A
• Entrepreneurial Skills and Business Ethics: C
• Software Engineering Practices: A-
• Object-Oriented Programming Techniques: A
• Advanced Artificial Intelligence: A
• Cryptography: B+

GPA (based on my calculation, if I’m not mistaken with the grade stuff): 3.5

[:: Edit: Just recalculated with some corrections made ^^” ::]

Interpersonal Communication: I didn’t really expect an A for this since I can’t finish one of the questions. But as it turns out, I’m so glad with this ^^. Thanks Ms Nicole for her great and inspiring class!

Entrepreneurial Skills and Business Ethics: I’m just glad that I didn’t get any worse than this. Period ^^”

Software Engineering Practice: I was quite worried when I didn’t fared well in my mid-term exams, but good thing …

According to our school Intranet:

“Please note that Notification of Results for September 2004 Examinations will be released tentatively on Monday, 18 October 2004.”

OMG, I’m so nervous about it ^^”… I hope that I performed well. Wish me luck (and no delays :p)!