Woke up late, miss work XDDD. So I’m at home now :p.

But actually I did that pretty much on purpose though, because I do need to revise for my mid-term test tommorrow. I just find another day slot of fill in the day off I took, just to be responsible :p.

Is thinking of going out today, but I suppose I have to do that AFTER my revision ;____;. Bleh, I think I’ll go later in the afternoon to buy myself a birthday present :p.

今日は僕の誕生日です！^^

Oh yes! Today’s my big double two’s ^^, and that signifies the beginning of my 23rd year in life :).

Since I’ll be working tommorrow today, so Erika, Steven, Rachael, Soo Hoo and Carin (Did I spelt that right?) throw a small birthday party for me today yesterday 😊. Albiet a bit small, but it’s extremely sweet of them…. :). glomps them all

So today I got two birthday presents :3. One is from Grace, who gave me a cool ornament bottle. Basically it’s a bottle filled with blue liquid with some silvery substance, which, when you turn it over like a snowglobe, you’ll see all these silvery substances mix up with blue substance and it creates some sort of a moving satin/silky effect. Which is really cool visual effects <333 …

#1:

After all that pented fury being release elsewhere (my LJ, actually), it seems that I’m able to get my defensiveness and ego down to go to meet up with the Students Affairs Department (I wonder whether I should capitalise that… Any English grammarians around?). But nonetheless I’m feeling a bit nervous when I entered the room, then pretty much my priorities are being set straight: That I would really want this to work out and I want the freshmen to have a booklet that would set the expectations and hopes for the university themselves.

Then I remember what the message that I really wanted to convey, in whatever art form I design: A beginning of journey with hopes, together with a sense of togetherness, unity and harmony, to set out for a …

It’s now days after I have been having some sort of apprehension building up…

Is it that I’m spreading too thin: that looking at my current responsibilities that I’m carrying now making me shiver from the spine? (read: deadlines)

Is it that I’m nervous: that I’m getting closer to my graduation days? (read: Dang I still haven’t started to build connections/future plans/blah blah blah…)

Is it that I’m afraid…: that I’ll lost the precious gifts that I have been given once we get far apart…? (read: Choon Hui and Erika)

… Or is it something… else?

Somewhat my apprehensions have messed up my mood and mind big time. Although frankly speaking all three things I mentioned above is definitely NOT problems in the first place, since …

Both of my designs got rejected, as much as I have spent nearly a week to produce them! AAAARRRRGGGHHH!!!!

stabs! strangles! drown slaugthers! [insert-any-creative-form-of-murder-here]!

If they don’t want a anime like cover, THEY SHOULD TELL ME EARLIER SO THAT I DON’T NEED TO WASTE MY TIME AND SLEEP WORKING THAT HARD! AAAARRRGGGHHHHHH!!!!

thinking of deleting them straight away… but yet cools down before I actually do so

I love my cover arts ;____; sniff … and I’m proud of them as well, because it’s been a while I haven’t been drawing actual artwork ;____; sniff sniff…

Ah well… guess I have to design a few abstract ones (which is something that I’m more confident in doing in less than 1 day).

[:: to Nine ::]

Being a brave soul, I bought Nuage …

Just something that I found funny just now, it’s like… all of a sudden I kept on hearing buzzing noises somewhere, and later on the lights starts to flicker like mad… then all of a sudden the place got dark… everything went silent… After a while, the lights started to flicker again, with every single light flickering in dischord…seemingly to showing something sinister is coming…

… Then it gets dark again… no matter how hard I try to flick the switch… the switch only emits a buzzing sound… at the same time you can see there’s flickering electric in it… scaring that something back is going to happen… I stayed back….

Everything is so spooky… I’m starting to afraid… starting to afraid of the dark…

… Then… the lights are back on… and …

Make it a short one:

Ever since the past few weeks… I just feel some sort of anxiety and apprehension, which gets stronger and stronger by the day.

Some change is occuring… and I know it’s there and yet I really don’t know what is going to change.

An apprehension to something unknown… heh, as much on the surface it’s seems funny and unfounded, but deep down… I know it’s not.

Should I embrace it? Or should I wait and see? But the feeling… is so strong that it’s hard for me not to pay attention on it.

…

Closing my eyes… I see myself… in a stream of constant change… Thoughts fleeting past me, people walking past me… every single second retiring…

Is changing oneself hard? Or is it that …

I NEED this but…

;____;

I really want a GBA… now! (Together with FFTA would be a bonus though…)

Or maybe I should wait for Nintendo Gameboy DS instead for that juicy FFIII port as well… GAH~~~!!!!

[:: Edit: Linky fixed ::]

So… I got some new CDs: hitomi’s thermo plastic & Final Fantasy X-2’s OST :). I break one rule though: Because my principle is that I don’t listen to any game music that I have never played before. But… since it’s hard for me to find game music CDs anyway (stupid Digicube for not exporting game music ;___;, and I SWEAR that I’m not going to buy another bootleg anymore), and so I bought it :3.

Anyway, I haven’t listened to them both yet XDDD. Well… at least not the whole CD :p. Hitomi’s style seems to remind me of the main vocalist in globe (forget the name), but first impression wise… well… I still need some time listening this CD a few more times. But… I really love Koda …

Cut so that poor dialup users don’t have to suffer that over 100k image download ^^”.

Anyway, I’m not sure whether this cover design is going to get through (well… if they say no I have to design another one ^^”), but it took me quite some time to come up with this and I’m extremely proud of it ^^.

Currently at work… kinda tired actually due to lack of sleep, yet I still have to work dies. See you guys later then!