Isn’t this cute? <3<3<3

Anyway, full story: We have a small (pre-)Christmas party in the office today, and we have agreed to do an exchange of gifts at the end of the party. And so~ we ordered Domino’s pizza and have a fun time listening to Christmas songs and such.

Our gift exchange is pretty much determined by random, as we draw numbered lots to see which present we are going to take home :). I got this cute keyboard wrist cushion from Hui Ying :D. It’s so adorable that I couldn’t resist hugging it or something :p.

Highlighted gift of the day is definitely:

• A ladle, from Seck Min to Boon Yeow
• A potty full of jelly, from Francis to Seng Yaw XDDD.

Oh god I laughed so …

Been spending days maintaining websites of my own. It’s been a while I finally made my move, having myself being unproductive for quite some time.

Anyway, currently starting work for FelixLeong.com, in which I started migrating The Digital Blue Wave (my technical blog) over to my server and starting やっぱり！の世界で (Yappari! no Sekai de), my own blog which is going to be a much light-hearted blog in Japanese, considering my skills in Japanese dead limited to write anything serious XDDDD. Seems to me like it’s going to be a good complement to my LJ.

In other news, I have been updating my personal profile over Friendster:

http://www.friendster.com/profiles/felixleong

For those who are interested can go over and have a look at it ;). It’s still a work-in-progress …

今天心情似乎布满了乌云：心中觉得沉重，却下不了雨来的感觉。

还蛮混淆的，即觉得心中沉重难堪，却并不觉得悲伤或讨厌。

是一向来对你累积却表达不到的感觉吗…？

真的很想说“我爱你”，但自己实在很不希望在心中在这种天气说出口…

My emotions today seems to be blanketed by clouds: Feeling heavy inside, yet it doesn’t seem to be capable to rain.

It’s quite confusing actually, even if I feel some heavy and burdened inside, but I don’t feel sad or annoyed by it.

Is it the accumulated feelings for you that never get expressed?

Really wanted to say “I love you”, but I really don’t want to say it under such emotional weather…

I never knew that my brother and sister has started their blogs :D. How did I discovered them? Both on Friendster, but in different ways.

I noticed my brother’s blog first, but it wasn’t that hard because he started his blog over Friendster so I definitely get a email notification about it. As for my sister, it’s until I read her profile with great attention that I noticed the link of her MSN Space.

As I flip through their posts, I just can’t stop laughing from time to time. It’s kinda heart-warming, in a way, since in every word they wrote, I just feel like I’m listening to them ramble just about anything. Somehow it did remind me that as much we are different in many ways, we also …

For those who is wondering what happen during the past two weeks, well… a lot of things happened lately: Internally and externally. It’s even hard enough to stuff all my feelings in a just a post or two.

Anyway, here are the major ones that should be of much concern (either to myself or those who are reading this): - Experience very fluctuating emotions after my last poem post. Although it’s not that hard to predict it’s still me boiling up all those unresolved issues of the past that seems to need some sort of closure. But somehow I’m starting to see the importance of it, well, in a way, and that seeking closure from within is no simple task. It’s really hard to bear a lot of guilt and pain …

Out of all kinds of different illness, one of the most annoying ones has to be food poisoning.

Feeling much better now, although I do have to admit that I feel almost dead during the ordeal. Hope I’ll recover by tomorrow.

If everything goes as what my calendar (future events, as in) and bank balance is stating now, I’ll be broke before end of this month.

Scary thought, but that does mean that I need to monitor my finances more carefully this month… make that EXTREMELY careful.

Other than that, I’m now almost officially capable to run into debt (read: credit cards). That’s one more parameter for me to keep track now, but at least I did had my reality check before hand when I saw the interest rates (18% for late payment, around 9% p.a. for any flexible payment scheme).

I guess that there’s no wonder that they say that money is easily spent than earned… at least I see that theoretically. Currently I’m thinking of a catch phrase …

Emotional breakdown today, literally.

The happiness of one time can really bring contrast to the times when we are suffering from low emotions. Sometimes beautiful imaginations will become nightmares, especially when I realised that reality is a complete different picture in what’s in my head. Sometimes, as much as I know that things takes its own course and I have to be patient, yet sometimes I get very frustrated as progress seems to be so subtle that I have no signs of knowing where am I now.

It really scares me that strong feelings towards someone sometimes turns into possessiveness - that I can become really jealous, that I feel the strong urge of not letting go, that I’m capable to bring hurt and pain to the one that I cared a lot. Is …

Passed through my 23rd birthday pretty much in a normal fashion, without any celebration or fanfare.

Been working as a facilitator of the programming competition organized by our company (or more exactly, my department) today.

But nonetheless I have a great time, just being around with friends, chatting, joking away and having a great time. Simple as these little things were, to me, its a great present. 😊

Currently working on planning and learning to build sites, those that runs on PHP, that is :).

In other news, a old primary school friend + classmate found me over Friendster :D. It’s kinda embarrassing that I can’t remember her and it took me quite a while to have my memory refreshed. ^^” And got a surprise mail from my mom’s friend, who is a Japanese teacher overseas :D. I’m now typing my mail in Japanese, hope this’d be a great chance to really practise my Japanese :D.