If anyone’s wondering what happened three days back, put it simply, what happened is this: My ADSL modem, not one, but both modems that I owned, gone “kaput” (i.e. dead). Or at least one of them is a confirmed death and I’m getting a friend to test the other to really make sure.

And it’s a very, very unbelievable coincidence that both died at the same time, and I’m back to my “No Internet Days” that I have experienced a few weeks back (around 3 weeks? I suppose).

So the whole cycle was to be repeated again: me taking leave to get one of them repaired, wait for the test results from my friend; if it’s dead, send it for warranty and wait for a month… Stuff like that …

Yesterday was a tiring day for me, probably due to the fact that I didn’t get enough sleep for almost the whole week. And the accumulating stress didn’t help much. Sometimes, working something on a very long period just give me that dangling thought of getting it done, which in turn gave me some unnecessary stress?

Then just soon after I reached home and decided to have my dinner and rest, “POOF!”, and complete darkness. Just one of those very, very rare occurrence of a black out. And my mom called me while I’m busy inspecting the mains, but later on I was so tired that I didn’t called her back as promised. I just slumped back into my bed.

My thoughts and mood gets very muddled these days as I …

As much as this seems like I’m going to talk about my job (although the rest of the post sounds to be like it), this post is about something else:

At times I really felt like kicking myself for being dumb.

By all means there’s lots more room for me to explore and learn… and bump into random walls along the way.

It seems that joining the ranks of sneezes and coughs, mouth ulcers is another one of the most frequent health related problems/annoyances that I face almost once a month.

And this time round I got one big one (around 20~25mm) on the very right corner of the inner lip, and that’s really no fun. As much I’m relieved that that part of the lip weren’t as sensitive as the middle part of the lip (I didn’t felt much pain on the ulcer, to be honest), but it really felt that as if my mouth is going to leak from the right corner.

Reminds me of the days around two decades back.

Looking it up in Wikipedia, I really wondered whether is it my toothpaste, the recent stress levels I …

Sometimes I just can’t feel anything but a little bit self conscious.

Somehow I’m starting to see and being aware of my own shortcomings and the constraints that I have to live with.

That’s pretty much all I can say at the moment.

After getting an ironing board and a steam iron, I’m now pondering how did I survived without them for the past year 😛 (with a normal iron with a large table surface as my “board”).

But not without some accidents though, as I didn’t realized that leaving the iron horizontally would cause water leakage, which really gave me a wet mess ^-^||.

And so the manual did said that I have to keep it on its heels when I’m not using it.

I’m still kinda working out my ironing skills, by all means these should make my ironing tasks much easier and faster :).

If that’s the case, I swear that I’d never leave my body cold for a long period of time. That includes sleeping without my clothes on.

In case anyone’s wondering, I caught a cold today, which worsens throughout the day. Been sneezing and handling my running nose almost the whole afternoon, which saw my health goes at a very fast, deteriorating pace.

I can’t even do without any tissue paper for even one second. Blegh!

The cause of the problem, just out of my whim I decided to sleep with my shirt off. But it was pretty cold through the night as there’s a desk fan whirling at full speed, aiming quite close to me, and the night seems to be pretty cold. And it seems that the blanket didn …

I’m back after 4 days over my parents’ place. Nothing happened except the fact that I spent almost all my time lying down on the couch or bed.

Although physically it looked as seems as I’m at rest, but honestly speaking it’s more of the fact that I just felt heart heavy… I don’t know, it just seems that I’m living at two different places, feeling split into two somehow. I just didn’t felt being completely at home at all.

Just missing that somebody…

But anyway, my sister is back for a 2 months school holiday and the new house is done minus the furniture and EVERYTHING in our temporary house O_O||. The ceiling turns out to be way too low for us (knowing that our family members are …

A lot of stuff that needs to be done, to a point of frustration X_X||.

Just seems that work just kept on piling and coming my way that I just felt very stressed out.

And thinking that going back to my hometown this Thrusday may not be helping to relieve stress… probably it will cause the opposite, if I didn’t manage my stress level/workload well.

Really feel dead at some point, but seeing that I’m surviving, guess I can cope with it. After all, this isn’t the first time I ever have myself in this kind of crisis.

In other news, got my modem back yesterday, but it’s not working! >_<|| So I’d need to send it back… I’m kinda worried because I’m not sure whether is …

Guess not having the Internet isn’t really made me being lazy back home afterall :p, instead I have been ironing things out and settling some matters.

Busy, busy, busy!

It does seem to me that this month is just full of stuff to complete.

It’s pretty a pleasant surprise to see Sze Hau and Vivian in the office yesterday :). Somehow I was expecting that I might be the only one in the office. But anyway, probably I might become a temporary workaholic for a few weeks, considering that I definitely need to iron out my testing work ASAP.

I do forsee that it’s going to be busy for a few more weeks/months, but I’m sure I’ll be OK as everything is workable. I do have to say that the …