I really wondered what I ate. Really. My stomach is feeling funny, and I have seen more liquid than anything for the past three days :(.

Not really something that needs medical attention, but hope this does not continue… (by then seeing the doctor is inevitable)

In other news, it’s been a slow day today, which gives me some ample time to work on some progress. But I not really feeling healthy today so I pretty much kept silent throughout the day.

I’m still having drifting thoughts and have my own feelings analysed in my head… you know, still about the distance between two people. I don’t know, it’s like within a short period of time, sometimes I felt there’s a barrier between us, yet sometimes I felt that it’s …

I have to admit that I really have a very, very, very short attention span ^^||, which means sustained learning efforts may be… umm, rare.

There’s a lot of things that I would want to do, explore and learn, really.

Currently I’m still learning Japanese, but yet I would really want to pick up Korean some time.

I wanted to pick up some books on travelling (especially Japan), but yet I’m sort of wondering whether I should do my research on buying myself an apartment or something.

I wanna be fat (Go Go Girls? XD) yet I would love to pick up something about health and fitness as well.

Would like to spend more time drawing and writing, yet I would want to spend some time to learn some programming language as well …

For some reasons, I’m in my cruelly evil mode today. Really, that’s something you don’t see everyday. But really, it’s one of those days, you’d find my sharp sarcasm and short circuited temper (under control, of course) going loose… well, not an all-out thing, but still I’m just like… Don’t mess with me or face my wrath.

I don’t know, observing myself at that point, it does show that I can go into extremes sometimes, just that I didn’t really show them ^^||. And I don’t plan to really lash it at anyone either because, for one thing, I’m already at the losing end anyway. (or from another perspective, I don’t want to waste my own energy on something that have no gain in …

今天明明是和往常一样啊！为什么刚刚在车上的我突然很想哭了呢？

无明的悲伤，内心不知为何的刺痛…连自己也不晓得为什么。

…是真的受伤了吗？即使那只是一个小小的切口，还是会觉得痛吧…但似乎找不到适合的OK绷贴上去的样子。

就那么的一天，为什么一直会去期待一些令自己感到安慰的幻想－－希望从你身上得到一些温柔体贴：让我依靠在你的肩膀也好，轻轻却很稳实的握着手也好，即使是温柔几句也好…但眼看现在的状况，似乎很无理吧…虚伪的安慰解脱，我自己真的很不想要啊！

自己…真的是想要求的立场…都没有吗…？虽然不会后悔，但有时候还是会觉得难过啊！

Wasn’t today just like every other day! Why I felt like crying in the car just now.

The unknown sadness and unknown pricks of the heart… Even myself don’t know why was that.

…Is is really that I’m hurt? Even if it’s just a small cut, the pain can still be felt, I think… but it seems that I can’t find a suitable plaster to cover it up at the moment.

Just at this kind of day, why I kept on longing for some calming fantasies — Wishing that I’m able to get some tender and care from you: Letting me to find support on your …

今天我真的哭了，真是烂透的一天。

并不需要任何安慰，只是很想发泄一下。

就是酱子而已。

Today I really cried, (it’s) really a terrible day.

(I) don’t need any consolation, just wanted to vent it off.

That’s all to it.

Keeping things short:

• Mood fluctuations, but mainly work stress
• Got myself a new pair of glasses, which I won’t be posting photos now because I’m currently un-photogenic :LOL:. Anyway, my eyesight is facing a slight decline… but still it wasn’t a good sign. 😞 But I just got one of those thinner lenses which is claimed to have smaller degrees of distortion. And now, apart from an unusually clear vision (close to 20-20?), I’m still in the progress of getting used to views with lesser distortion 😆 (imagine when you switch from a normal, curved screen TV to a flat panel, the difference is more or less the same, albeit it’s not that obvious to the eyes)
• By accident, I went to one of those free outdoor concerts organized by My FM …

Well… just thinking of a need to dump my own sketches somewhere, and so I had an account :).

The recent artworks I had done and posted on LJ was featured there in the “Scraps” section and I have added some comments to it. But, to be VERY honest, I wrote those comments for the sake of writing them XD. (well… not really, as I have put some thoughts into it and explains about my own experiences when I drew these arts. And these comments weren’t something that I would like to remember, hence it’s not in this LJ)

BTW, they are in full size (640x480) instead of 320x240 that PhotoBucket had made them to be (due to file size restrictions).

Something that I really have to admit: I’m bad at remembering people in general. Or more specifically, I can only remember those who are pretty close to me and most acquaintance will pretty much have forgotten almost instantly.

Personally, in order for me to really know somebody, I just need some sort of connection. You know, breaking the ice, talking or interacting with each other and getting to know a bit of the individual does help in forging the memory of someone else.

Sometimes… well, if something was to be recalled, it really has to go into specifics, like something I would definitely REMEMBER XD.

Well, but it’s great to know and meet somebody who have some sort of connection in the past. And if either one of us can’t recall this …

I’m still playing catching up at the moment. Everything seemed normal but in actual fact I’m still struggling to get work done X_X.

And yeah for me screwing up stuff X_X||.

In other news, why do I always need some sort of signal before I’d EVER make my first move… X_X I’m not really sure whether is it just me being overly-perfectionist style of making sure that I get things right or I’m just finding excuses to cover the fact that I had chickened out.

People can be just unpredictable at times.

GAH! Just got a bombshell from the boss today O_O||: I’d need to suspend my current testing and was expected to complete my programming task during this week O_O||. Not to mention that it was scheduled for 9 days and I only have about 3 days to complete it! X_X

To be fair, I’m already way behind schedule in work due to several factors, my mistake actually to underestimate certain things. And considering that my work is blocking the payment schedule (as in collecting payments for the work we had done), there’s no room for me to argue anything.

Sigh… I wonder whether I’m able to pull this off nicely. _O_

Anyway, in other news, I really wondered whether guys will take “cute” as a compliment? He has definitely made my day today for that :).