OK, now “cooking” is definitely in my “to learn” list. Just being able to prepare some simple ones would do (i.e. Light cooking). But since I didn’t have any personal fridge space, I wonder when is the chance…

Definitely the thing I’d would learn as soon as I move out, which is part of my own plan in a pretty distant future.

August is definitely a spending month, and I’m planning to use at most RM500 from my savings to satisfy my never-ending wish list. The Zen:Vision have to wait though… 😒 as much I’m very much tempted to buy it as my music collection has hit the iPod’s limit. (But my fair guess is that those CDs that I couldn’t live without would probably take around 5 …

There’s one subject that I really regret that I didn’t make much effort to learn and understand in my own schooling years: Math! @_@ Somehow I realize that I’m losing some of the fun without it.

It’s been a while… finally got some extra energy to really manifest these energies to learn how to create something. Been spending some extra time to pick up programming and drawing again, and taking every chance to expose myself to real-life Japanese text. Pretty much still at the crawling phase, it’s hard to say whether it is sustainable… But it’s OK, one step at a time.

がんばってね～

It’s been a while I haven’t really rested, finding my sleep time requirement have increased over time. Having no energy to work for the past two weeks (plus?) is not something very optimistic, in a way.

Not sure whether is it by chance, by my current circumstances or that I’m just not following my living pattern these days, I found myself overslept (like… 9 o’clock in the morning @_@||). Still feeling a bit bad about it as if I’m committing job suicide X_X… anxious and nervous, even.

But just staying at home, doing nothing, reading books on my bed… it’s been a while I haven’t felt that refreshed before ever since I had that hectic schedule for the past two to three months. Just the peace, serenity and …

Phase 2 of this year’s makeover starts from today ;). This time round, it’ll focus more on the “inner” aspects instead of my own wardrobe :).

Just had a shopping spree at the pharmacy , getting extra supplements and stuff. And probably it would take a few months. Do need some time to explore around and envisioning a healthier self: both physically and emotionally :).

Will keep tabs on my own progress along the way, till then it’s definitely a continuous effort on my part. My wallet’s going to take some extra damage, so it seemed ^^||.

Still at a demotivated stage at the moment, to anyone curious. Could use something uplifting at the moment.

Still learning how to handling these things in life.

GAH! I can’t believe that let my CD-ROM scratch yet ANOTHER of my favourite CDs X_X.

Anyway, I just bought MISIA’s Love & Ballads -The Best Ballade Collection- and Kitaro’s Kojiki: Two of them being in my most-wanted lists. I still remembered how much I was moved by Kojiki when I first heard it on cassette tape, and MISIA has always been in my list but just never really got the chance and money to really explore her music.

And the worst thing (again) is that the same thing that happened to my (miss)understood CD happens to my MISIA CD, again! It’s like, the CD just suddenly pops up from the drive, hedging on top of the tray and clacks it got stuck in between the roof and the tray …

Been spending some time tweaking my computer settings again, glad to see more effects (now I had some transparency effects and cool drop shadows for the windows :D) and a faster computer :).

At least it’s now utilizing more of the graphic card’s power, hate to see a good card underutilized :p.

今天，有种“糟了！被发现了！”的感觉。虽然自己说没什么，但其实是非常紧张，原本静静注视者你的眼神真的是不知望那儿摆了。

是觉得很高兴，同时又觉得有点不安。非常喜欢你却害怕被排撤的心里障碍又作祟了…或许已经到了那种无法自拔却也不知怎办的地步了吧！^-^||所以一直到现在还是不敢把自己好多好多的话说出来。

但是…真的是很开心啦！:)

Today, I had that “Oh no! I’m caught!” feeling. Although I said “Nothing” at that time, but really I felt very nervous, and I really don’t know where should those eyes originally and silently placed on you go to.

Feeling excited, yet at the same time feeling a bit insecure. That internal barrier of loving you so much yet afraid of being rejected is causing some trouble again… Maybe it had reached to a point that I can’t help myself yet I don’t know what to do. ^-^|| Therefore until now I’m still unable to express a lot of words to you.

But… I really felt happy! 😊

Hmm… just got bittorrent configured for the first time. I wonder what will happen next… ^-^||

Anyway, got to go to sleep, I have been having very sluggish days X_X”.