I just caught a cold X_X, and the more annoying part is that I had always felt that I’m starting to fall sick just a few days ago. So it’s like… slowly crept up to me as my health goes down the slopes (with me getting more lethargic more easily) and now I ended up sick X_X.

Not sure whether is it the recent stress attack or that my immune systems are building up at a very slow pace after my food poisoning a week or two before. Either way, it’s a red light to me to take care of myself.

Other than that… well, somehow with my mood slump this week, I just felt a bit… well, defeated inside. I do have the feeling like… giving up with whatever I’m …

One thing that I’m pretty much aware of myself for quite some time: I tend to sulk away from the world (at least internally) when I was in a slump, and it’s something that lasts for some time, depending on how despair I was.

So it’s like… feeling all unmotivated at work today, maybe I should have taken leave for today :(. Dealing with my disappointment with my current situation, myself and inability to fulfill some of the things I wanted, well… it’s something bearable, but still it’s not really something pleasant. Well, in my opinion, anyway ^^||.

Is that I have invested too much in my own imaginations and dreams that I didn’t put effort to manifest it? Well, probably. Seems likely that’s one of the main factor of …

Somehow I’m sorta thinking about the saying “what doesn’t kill you will nurture you”… or something of that kind. With all the sudden pounding and thundering of problems for the past few weeks… or probably months, I’m still wondering how did I managed to survive all these stress and anxieties ^^|||.

I’m not really sure whether I enjoyed the ride though, I do have my fit of rages (luckily curse words were banned from my vocal vocabulary)… well, when I was at the highest point of frustration, that is (translation: when the problems starts to overwhelm me). But at least everything is plodding through, as much it still wasn’t as optimistic as I would like it to be ^^|||.

Guess I still have to keep this combative mood at work for quite …

Tomorrow’s my birthday! And I get to get my own presents today (with my own money, of course ^^||).

By sheer chance I finally found Misia’s Marvelous CD <3! But the bad news is that it had scratches that it’s can’t play beyond Everything ;____;. Also meaning that I have to go back to the shop and ask for a replacement (less likely, seeing how scarce Japanese CDs were in Malaysia). Probably will see what I’d replace it for then. But seeing the tracklist, I think I’d do a special order for this one :).

I also got some new Japanese books. To be honest my attempts to learn the language are almost on-and-off attempts that didn’t last longer than a month ^^||. And I kept buying books to learn my …

For those who are wondering why my disappearance a few days back… due to my carelessness of drinking the cup of water which I have left on my office desk before I went up to Genting Highlands (read: three days), I ended up having food poisoning and fell sick until yesterday.

Moral of the story: Don’t leave food or drinks on your office table after you left… no matter what and at whatever cost!

Now I’m still recovering… My health and appetite has yet to recover back to normal, and I do feel a bit dizzy at times when I walk around (especially right after I get out from bed). I wonder whether it has to do with blood circulation? At the moment I really felt that I didn’t had enough blood …

So here I am again, at Genting Highlands on standby for the launch of our new game.

Winding back to Thursday, it had been a disaster when we tried to recover the database. Disaster in the sense that the data anomalies were beyond repair and the system is to be launch the next day. So… to cut the long story short, Sze Hau, Kok Weng and I have broke the record of the longest time staying in the office, clocked at 2 in the morning ^^||. And I am expected to wake up at 7.30 in the morning to go up to the hill to standby during the launch.

Looking at the bright side of things, well… at least things were going smooth at the moment and things weren’t as hectic as I would …

My mood now is best described as a cloudy day. Mostly being disappointed by myself and all anxious about the things that happened to me these days. Just one of those days when I felt life is harsh and crazy

But anyway, despite that (or should I say instead of whining over it in my LJ?), let me just share some of my PPP arcade videos taken on Saturday when I was at Genting Highlands (after working hours, of course :p). (Speaking of which, it’s been a while I haven’t filmed any para videos):

JEAAAAAlooooouSEEEEE~~~~ 😛

Here’s something you didn’t get to see everyday: A PPP machine tilted XDDD.

At least these brighten up my day a little… 😊 Definitely needs to film some para someday.

[p/s: Yes, these are indeed button …

For four years of online shopping, this is the first time that I was informed of a credit card fraud O_O||.

I’m lucky in the sense that the customer service of the bank called up as soon as they notice any online transactions being made on my cards. And just now when I received the call I was like… stunned O_O|||. Considering the fact that the card in question is the one that I’m currently using for most of my online shopping and I didn’t key these sensitive data in these days (meaning: I only shopped at eBay and used PayPal in recent shopping spree a few months ago), I wonder how and where the culprits got it…?

Funny thing is that I was just considering whether I should cancel my debit …

Let’s see… I’m starting to be busy these days, mostly because of fault reports starting to pile up. It was stressful at times as problems is outpacing my progress in solving them. I’m still learning how to cope with it, well, you know, with all these stress and emotional distress, keeping tabs with my own focus and calm is something very challenging indeed.

It does seems to me that it was like a warfare in smaller scale. At the moment I was kept on to my toes and having the need to keep my alertness level high… can’t be laid back as I would want to be.

And then I was up there at Genting for the past two days as we held our annual Programming Competition. Although it’s still …

An idly day today as I take two days leave from work. Didn’t plan to go out anyway, so it’s like… four days living in a secluded world (indoors?)? ^^||

Most of my time was spent resting (or more precisely, sleeping), but I did, in some way reluctantly, move around to carry on my daily life and performing household chores that has been delayed in the past (my surroundings were in quite a mess these days ^^||).

More important of all is that I’m sorting out my photographs in my hard drive, it’s like they were already scattered around everywhere in my hard drive and I just have to reorganize them. And grouping them in one location was the easy part, the hard part is to figure out whether I had duplicates of …