是否是要把脚步停下来，才能看到身处何方？

在疲累的时刻，抬头一看，看到了闪烁的星星。

Is it that the footsteps have to be ceased, in order to see where we are?

At that moment of tiredness, lifting my head up, I saw the shining stars in the sky.

孤寂的夜里，
悸动的心
呼唤着！哭嚎着！
 有谁听得见吗？

心中的坚强与虚弱
似乎只是幻影
或许那只是
 编织借口的工具吧！

是不甘心吗？
那不甘寂寞的呼唤吗？
还是
 那是紧急求救的苦嚎？

苦苦挣扎…
累得不能自己
就这样继续沉睡
 等待着明天的天晓

这个夜里
剩下
脸上枯干的痕迹，
 犹如祈祷的心跳声…

In a lonely night,
This trembling heart
Calling! Crying!
Does anyone hears it?

That strength and weakness of the heart
Seem to be an illusion
Maybe that’s only
A tool to weave more excuses

Is it that I’m not content?
That it is a scream of non-content because of loneliness?
Or
That is an emergency cry for help?

Struggling hard…
Tired to a point when my will is powerless against my soul
And so I continue to slumber
Until the dawn of tommorrow

This night,
All’s left
The trace of dryness on my cheeks,
The heartbeat that sounds like a prayer…

These few days I have been doing more English work than programming, all because of a technical specification I have written, which is meant to challenge the techincal editor recruits (and believe me, I have the knack of putting up a challenge for myself and others :p).

And no doubt I’m proud that my pre-school education (I was home schooled in English before I enrolled in Chinese medium kindergarten), years of being secretaries for societies and my love for languages and writing has paid off :). But probably that also means that my workload will be increased? But I don’t mind if I can learn things from this experience. ^-^ (Yet again, my purpose here is to do programming/development work. ARGH! The dillema XDD)

In other news, I’m now reading The Leader In …

I never knew Osho Times‘ “Your Answers…” column are updated weekly :D. Anyway, I have been reading Osho’s material these few weeks and I’d really recommend anyone to read it.

Just thought that this might be useful to some.

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The Knack of Transforming Feelings

From Osho Times Online: Your Answers on Emotions (August 22 Issue)

This is a beautiful method, it will be very useful for you.

For example, if you …

After a whole day of marathoning The Count of Monte Cristo, I’m just need to complete the last, climatic 100 pages of reading. And damn this has to be one of the longest novel I have read since The Lord of The Rings as I’m reading the original, English translated version of the novel which spans about 1100 pages (including the translation notes) in 7.5 pt font. O_O||

But anyway, it’s really a good read :). Although I do have to say that the heavy references of the French Revolution really put me off initially (I admit the fact that I really suck in history, in fact I have almost forgotten all historical facts that I can muster :p. And as an additional mention, this is my second attempt to “conquer” this …

Even one’s deprived of the possession of the things that one desires, one shouldn’t cheat oneself by refuting his desires.

First time ever that I have to come for overtime, not to mention that we are not paid extra for it :P.

But nevertheless it is not that bad, in fact it was pretty fun as I have company here :). Anyway, just came here to finish a specification for the purpose of hiring a technical editor: Or put it plainly, the boss is hiring somebody to correct our English.

Hmmm… and now I’m hungry and yet I’m still in the office… tummy growls

For those who noticed, I have changed my LJ layout. It basically one the new S2 free templates that LJ provides with minor colour tweaks, but it essentially captures the general feeling that I am in now.

Honestly speaking one main reason for the change of layout is that I’m starting to enter the transition into the fourth chapter in my life (or at least in my LJ sense). Every chapter actually signifies a turning point in life, in which one big turn of events really brought positive impact and changes into my life.

Reading back the poems in the past, it really shows the progress that I have been through thus far. Quoting back what I have written in the past: “For those who didn’t notice, my user info basically reflects a …

Didn’t update yesterday as I’m not really in the mood of typing my entry :(. Anyway, the important thing now is that I’m feeling much better now.

Anyway, Eurobeat Disney 3 and Aerobeat Dance Pop Version 2 came in the mail two days ago :D. Although first impression wise, Eurobeat Disney 3 sounds very lackluster to me as those Eurobeat artists sounds strangled from their powerful vocals (especially Mickey B., poor thing 😞 ). But it does sounds OK after a few runs. Aerobeat Dance Pop Version 2 on the other hand sounds good :D, it doesn’t have those really mismatching and annoying soundeffects that Aerobeat Eurobeat has, so that’s a big plus for them :). (Although they do inject a lot of extra sound effects like vynil scratching, all those “Heys~”, “Hoo~” and …

Some of my old, timid behaviour seems to come back to me. As I thought that my transformation is complete, the reality strikes me with the fact that I have more things to achieve in order to do just that.

Till then, my mood swings very badly when I get really agitated. Blergh…