Good news: My SEB130 came in the mail today.

Bad news: The asian edition only comes in two CDs ._.

Frustrating news: It was stated in HMV that it only comes in two CD, and I thought it meant that the shipping cost was calculated as two CDs. Apparently I was wrong.

Worst news: Actually with the money I spent to buy this CD, I can grab it off from ClubJapan at almost the same price!

GAH! pounds self like no end

Anyway, I’m thinking of buying the Japanese version next month, considering that YesAsia sold out their stock of their Parapara Paradise arcade soundtrack. >_< But then again… I really setting myself in some sort of a dilemma, since I’m thinking of getting some web space, and there’s a lot of …

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Since I’m unable to find a site to cut and paste the kanji version, I’ll type them out tonight later.

Coming back, I think this song reflects my current situation :).

About You / Ayumi Hamasaki

誰もがきっと心の どこかに隠された
闇を持っているもの
それが時々邪魔して 思う様に生きれない
 自分を創るの

人の痛みは計り知れないからね
 分け合う事もなかなか難しいね

だけどねもしもちゃんと
向き合いたいと思える
 人に出会えたなら怯えたくない

激しい音立てて 閉ざした心の扉
開く鍵なんでもうずっと遠い日に
見失ったのなら
ありきたりな言葉とか
ありふれた表現でいい
何にも包まれていないそのままを
あなたから聞かせて
 私へ響かせて

決して目には映らない 形のないものを
信じてみる事は
とても恐くもあるけど それが出来るのなら
 素晴らしい事ね

正気保っていられなくなりそうな
 そんな灰色の街の真ん中でも

そんなもんなんだって
何か諦めたように
 力なく笑ったりしないで

何も犠牲にせず 欲しいものだけをすべて
手に入れることが出来た人だなんて
どこにいるって言うの
ねぇどんなに望んでも
二度とは手に入らない
私が失った憧れのものを
 あなたは持っている

激しい音立てて 閉ざした心の扉
開く鍵なんでもうずっと遠い日に
見失ったのなら
ありきたりな言葉とか
ありふれた表現でいい
何にも包まれていないそのままを
 あなたから聞かせて

何ひとつ犠牲にせず 欲しいものだけをすべて
手に入れることが出来た人だなんて
どこにいるって言うの
ねぇどんなに望んでも
二度とは手に入らない
私が失った憧れのものを
あなたは持っている
 それがとても眩しい

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(English translation from Divine Ayu)

Everyone surely has darkness
Hidden somewhere in their heart
Sometimes it prevents them
From living as they wish

We can’t imagine other people’s pain
It’s hard for us to share it

But if I meet …

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Yes! It’s been a while I have choreographed any paras :D. And finally it seems that a sudden gush of creativity has come to me 😄 — Not to mention the blinding speed that I’m able to complete it :D.

It’s like… a day or two before I finished choreo’ing Sophie’s Are You Ready To Fly in an hour or two. And today I just finished with Van T.K. and Kiki & Fancy’s Make Your Move in a day! And I’m really proud of them as I have pretty much break the traditional pattern and incorporated something new in it :D.

And I can say that it is better than my last set (I Wanna Be Fat, Hello and Wings To The Sky) :D.

I’ll do my filming this …

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OK, just wanted to jot down what happened in real life instead of billions and trillions of thoughts and pondering in my head XD.

These few days has been very, very busy to me. It does seem that after close to six month of honeymoon-ing with my new job, my job responsibilities has expanded to a point that I’m like, being very diverse in terms of my job scope and responsibilities. Just to illustrate (umm… or more like “describe” though XD) my point, not only I’m doing computer programming, I’m also doing technical editing, writing specifications, testing, and probably running around in the office and taking naps in the office (Oops! I wonder whether anyone in the office reads this XDDD). Compared to Eng Lee and Kok Hwa who came in almost …

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Seeing my brain cells running on full capacity, only to realise that every single one of them are used to create images of you.

Just one statement is enough to trigger thousands of thoughts, flooding the mind with thousands of illusions: those that reflect the core of our own becoming — desires, regrets, dreams, imagination, repressed emotions…

Some beautiful, some not-so, some downright scary and ugly.

Somehow, each and every of these thoughts, screaming attention for one to perceive it as a reality. Is that a manifestion of a vision, so that we will work to achieve that? Or is it just an act of cowardice, seeking an outlet to make believe of something that seemed to be impossible?

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I suffer immensely from loneliness. What can I do about it?

From Osho Times Online: Your Answers on Relating (Oct 17 Issue)

The darkness of loneliness cannot be fought directly. It is something essential for everyone to understand, that there are a few fundamental things which cannot be changed. This is one of the fundamentals: you cannot fight with darkness directly, with loneliness directly, with the fear of isolation directly. The reason is …

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Valentina’s Your Love and Sophie’s Stop The Music CD came into the mail :D, which makes me about 2 titles short from collecting the full album of my favourite artists: Mega NRG Man’s Fire and King & Queen’s Season.

Still waiting for my SEB130 to come from HMV, Hong Kong :D.

As a possibly related note, it’s shawaazu’s birthday! Happy birthday! 😄

Let’s see… spending a few days up here in Genting Highland, getting the darn machines to be set up (and that took us two days O_O), testing these machines and seeing all sorts of bugs flying around (programming/system implementation bugs, that is), and I’m still waiting for that darn jackpot to hit so that I can see what’s going to happen (and that’s NOT an optional test case).

Not to mention that I’m feeling kinda lonely over here: after facing all those challenges that seems like a mountain T-T.

But generally it has been a great experience, does give me more exposure to the real world outside together with all its possible adventures and challenges. And the people that I have been working with are really helpful and friendly …

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