Out of all kinds of different illness, one of the most annoying ones has to be food poisoning.

Feeling much better now, although I do have to admit that I feel almost dead during the ordeal. Hope I’ll recover by tomorrow.

或许…永远永远没有人会看得到…
或许…永远永远没有人会听得见…
 或许…永远永远没有人会感受得到…

但是，自己仍然默默地期许着
…一天，心中的温暖能够传达到你那边。
虽然有时还会觉得低落…
虽然有时还会觉得创伤…
 虽然有时还会觉得绝望…

但现在，我终于发觉到：
即使你永远永远没注意到，也没什么关系了：
因为你的存在已经让我找到我最珍贵的宝物了。
 我终于可以实实在在的相信爱的存在了。

现在心中吟唱着的歌是我生存的证明：
因为你，也为了你，分享那份喜悦。
…继续地祈祷着…
 …希望你会感受得到…

Maybe… Forever and ever nobody will be able to see…
Maybe… Forever and ever nobody will be able to hear…
Maybe… Forever and ever nobody will be able to feel…

But, I still silently wished
… that one day, the warmth in my heart will be able to reach you.
Although sometimes I still feel down…
Although sometimes I still feel hurt…
Although sometimes I still feel hopeless…

But now, I finally realised:
Even forever and ever you will never notice, it’s not a problem anymore:
Because your existence has made me found my greatest treasure.
I finally can believe the existence of love with no doubts.

Now, the songs …

Be aware — be responsible to what you are wishing for, because every wish is a change in life, and that you’ll never be the same anymore…

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THE NEED TO BE SPECIAL

From Osho Times Online: Your Answers Quetioned on Emotions (Dec 5 Issue)

I feel depressed and self-condemnatory, although I don’t really know why….

That is a way to remain the same…that is a trick of the mind. Rather than understanding, the energy starts moving into condemnation…and the change comes through understanding, not through condemnation. So the mind is very cunning: the moment you start seeing …

Saying that you are giving freedom to others is a sorry excuse of hiding the fact that you are imprisoning yourself.

心情似乎像天气一样：一时放晴，一阵下雨。

不知为何，今天天气预报似乎没料到现在心中那阵微微细雨。真想想寻找一个温暖的停留站歇歇下。:)

(My) Feelings seems to be like the weather: Sometimes it shines, sometimes it showers.

I don’t know why, it seems that the weather forecast today didn’t predicted that drizzling in my heart. Really makes me wanted to find a warm place to rest for a while. 😊

If everything goes as what my calendar (future events, as in) and bank balance is stating now, I’ll be broke before end of this month.

Scary thought, but that does mean that I need to monitor my finances more carefully this month… make that EXTREMELY careful.

Other than that, I’m now almost officially capable to run into debt (read: credit cards). That’s one more parameter for me to keep track now, but at least I did had my reality check before hand when I saw the interest rates (18% for late payment, around 9% p.a. for any flexible payment scheme).

I guess that there’s no wonder that they say that money is easily spent than earned… at least I see that theoretically. Currently I’m thinking of a catch phrase …

对很多朋友来说，很多只晓得我喜欢喝柠檬茶，并不知道它背后隐藏的感觉。

不知为何，在学院念书的时期首次接触到它的时候就一“饮”钟情：因为它就象自己所向往的恋爱吧！它酸中带甜，微苦中带着清甘，虽然摸着杯子觉得冰冰地，但喝了下去后却让身子觉得暖暖地感觉。没红茶一般高贵，反而让人喜欢它有点独特，有点情调的平凡。

…或许就因如此，每次想念着你的当时一定会想起了柠檬茶…一个很天真的习惯吧。:)

To a lot of friends, they only knew that I loved iced lemon tea, but they don’t know the emotions behind that.

I don’t know why, during the time when I was studying in college, I fell in love with the drink when I first exposed to it: Because it’s like the kind of love that I’m looking forward to! Behind sour and bitterness lie the essence of sweetness, although I feel the chillness when I hold the cup, but every sip of the drink makes me feeling warm inside. Even it’s not as elegant as tea itself, but I love it for being unique and sentimental, despite being ordinary.

… Maybe that …

Emotional breakdown today, literally.

The happiness of one time can really bring contrast to the times when we are suffering from low emotions. Sometimes beautiful imaginations will become nightmares, especially when I realised that reality is a complete different picture in what’s in my head. Sometimes, as much as I know that things takes its own course and I have to be patient, yet sometimes I get very frustrated as progress seems to be so subtle that I have no signs of knowing where am I now.

It really scares me that strong feelings towards someone sometimes turns into possessiveness - that I can become really jealous, that I feel the strong urge of not letting go, that I’m capable to bring hurt and pain to the one that I cared a lot. Is …

Passed through my 23rd birthday pretty much in a normal fashion, without any celebration or fanfare.

Been working as a facilitator of the programming competition organized by our company (or more exactly, my department) today.

But nonetheless I have a great time, just being around with friends, chatting, joking away and having a great time. Simple as these little things were, to me, its a great present. 😊