Through The Looking Glass: The Year 2005 In Review — Part II
March 2005 - Stress And Sickness
“Looking back into those two years, it’s like… a lot of things had happened, and I have been through all the most extreme ups and downs that I had in life. And now I’m just sitting here, feeling a sense of calmness which I would never expect.” — March 16, 2005
“There were times when you just have to accept the fact that some wounds would take a longer time to heal.” — March 21, 2005
“梦醒之后，才发现你以前给我的那毫无防备的微笑。这时才猛然发觉…我爱你的，就是你那一份纯真。” (After I woke up from my dream, only I realised that defenceless smile of yours. Only then I suddenly realised… what I love about you, is the simpleness in you.) — March 27, 2005
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Nothing much to say about this month as I spent more time working rushing on …
Through The Looking Glass: The Year 2005 In Review — Part I
It’s this time of the year again, it’s just a good time to review what’s happening in my life as recorded in my LJ. Say it like a summary of sorts, and I have tagged some extra posts, particularly I have expanded some posts into the impromptu section.
Anyway, 2005 has been a very exciting year for me as I find myself changed quite a lot during this period. A lot of joy, laughter, blood and tears happened, and it was quite a turbulent year for myself as I have experienced both the peaks and the valleys in life. But it really made me being able to realise a lot of things that I have overlooked in the past, that as much isn’t a bed of roses, it wasn’t a …
Continue Reading (707 words, 3 minute read)Impromptu: 伤痛 Pain
有多少次让自己受不必要的伤痛？才发现好多好多伤口是自创的：都是被自己对别人的看法，角度，观点想法所造成的。
How many times we let ourselves bearing the unnecessary pain? Only to notice that a lot of wounds are self inflicted: All caused by our own perspective towards others.
如果，爱 Perhaps Love
心，又生病了。
或许是营养不良的关系吧…还是有些不均衡的存在吧…
明明距离就是那么的接近，却克制了自己去抓紧你。…是害怕吗？总是觉得自己少了些什么的样子。
有些美丽的话语，收在心里太久了：开始变了质。这样不新鲜的爱意，真的是要自行去解决：因为我真的是不要让你中毒。
所以，就让自己病到了。
或许自己真的是好傻…
My heart is falling ill again.
Maybe it’s malnourished, or probably there’s some imbalance exists…
Even with our distance so close, yet I resisted myself to hold you tight. … Is it that I’m afraid? I always feel as if I’m short of something.
Some beautiful words, kept too long in my heart: starting to turn sour. This kind of stale feelings, it’s really something that I have to settle by myself: because I really don’t want you to get poisoned because of it.
Therefore, I let myself fall ill.
Maybe I’m just really that foolish…
Suppressed Emotions
有时觉得自己很挫：明知道自己最不会掩饰自己的情绪感情，却绝对不会说出自己的伤心，妒嫉，吃醋，生气，担心，在乎， 喜欢…
Sometimes I can’t help but feeling a little bit stupid sometimes: As much as I know that I’m not good in covering up my feelings and emotions, yet I will never say out all my sadness, envy, jealousy, anger, worry, love…
Impromptu: Every Little Thing
Trivial as little things may be, every little thing has their significance.
In Debt
Finally I found myself in the situation I dreaded: I’m now in debt!
Now with around 20 24 grands in study loans and “owing” myself RM500 (i.e. taken from my savings account), I kinda scratch my head to think of how to draw an equal sign within a managable period of time.
The reality check is NOW X_X||. I better keep my hands off from eBay and other shopping sites.
Tiring Day
Today can be described with only a few words: Tall stack of paperwork, pending workload (that keeps on coming my way) and a flat tyre.
But working on my own website shifts my energies back in shape. Just merged all the important posts in my technical blog, The Digital Blue Wave. It’s been hard work migrating it over to my personal site, FelixLeong.com, but now with all the contents moved over, I can spend time working on other stuff.
First things first: Get rid of that default template XD.
Lyrics From The Heart: Everything
MISIA / Everything
from: http://users.skynet.be/roxfan/lyrics/misc/177.html
すれ違う時の中で あなたとめぐり逢えた
不思議ね 願った奇跡が こんなにも側にあるなんて
逢いたい想いのまま 逢えない時間だけが 過ぎてく扉 すり抜けて
また思い出して あの人と笑い合う あなたを
愛しき人よ 悲しませないで 泣き疲れて 眠る夜もあるから
過去を見ないで 見つめて 私だけ
You’re everything You’re everything
あなたが想うより強く やさしい嘘ならいらない 欲しいのはあなた
どれくらいの時間を 永遠と呼べるだろう 果てしなく 遠い未来なら
あなたと行きたい あなたと覗いてみたい その日を
愛しき人よ 抱きしめていて いつものように やさしい時の中で
この手握って 見つめて 今だけを
You’re everything You’re everything
あなたと離れてる場所でも 会えばきっと許してしまう どんな夜でも
You’re everything You’re everything
あなたの夢見るほど強く 愛せる力を勇気に 今かえていこう
You’re everything You’re everything
あなたと離れてる場所でも 会えばいつも消えさって行く 胸の痛みも
You’re everything You’re everything
あなたが想うより強く やさしい嘘ならいらない 欲しいのはあなた
You’re everything You’re everything
You’re everything
My everything
Translation by MegChan, from: http://www.megchan.com/lyrics/translations/everything.html
I met you by chance in the midst of passing time
It’s amazing, isn’t it? That such a miracle should …
Christmas Fun
It’s been quite an eventful Christmas. It didn’t start that smoothly though, as my DSL modem suddenly refuses to talk with my network on Christmas eve, and that I can’t seem to get onto dialup either on that day. Not to mention the water outage a day before that and we had murky waters later :(.
But… Christmas is REALLY awesome as I went for karaoke with Sze Hau, Sook Lan, Hui Ying and Seon :D. Somehow it started to become a monthly event? Hmm… Another ex-colleague (for Sook Lan and Sze Hau) in the department came as well, but her name seems not to get registered into my mind now :p. But we really sung our lungs out with a really diverse set of songs, spanning different languages, popular songs from different …
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