Started up a MySpace MSN Spaces today, I haven’t really decided what to do with it, since I had my personal journal here and my technical and Japanese (planned) journal over my website.

But I do have a feeling that I’ll have something on it… currently the thing I had in mind is those ever changing MSN screen names which pretty much immediately reflects how I felt, what’s happening (indirectly) and those small little word nuggets that pops into my brain.

And… it’s like an empty space for me to store little trinklets in life which is too small to be covered in my LJ (even more minute than my Impromptu posts)… or probably small fragments of thoughts which is only a clause but never a sentence. And with some lists …

Let’s see… my application to convert my study loan to scholarship was approved, which means that I have some slight financial room from now on… and probably I would need to wait a while to see whether they will refund my loan repayments in the past.

Then been spending time ripping my DVDs, I always wanted to have a backup of them, at least in encoded form and my new harddisk space allowed me to do so. But I do forsee that it’ll take a while before I get them all done, so the plan is let the conversion run by itself while I’m sleeping. I didn’t dare to switch on my compy when I’m off to work after a few storm related accidents and harm to my computer :X …

Took leave today, and my emotions are like… meh ._.

It’s been kind of a depressing state when I spent time reflecting on recent events… Not because that something happened, but rather the lack of it. It’s really like, I sensed something is different, yet I just can’t pinpoint what nor I’m able to see where that’s coming from.

And there’s some questions that I really wanted to ask… yet I really don’t know how to ask without feeling awkward. >_<|| And there’s more questions… about self-centered-ness and interpersonal communication and relationships. And I’m like… the more closer or intimate with someone, the harder I find myself to understand them, expressing my concerns or that not to become a burden to them.

Is it really that …

Been facing the monitor for the whole day… literally.

Why? Just finalizing my Gentoo Linux project, I still need to install my graphic tablet though. Other than that everything else are pretty much trivial stuff, minor tweakings, that is.

I always wondered whether radiation from monitors would mutate my genes, though :p.

Feeling screwed up over several matters these days. Nothing pretty major or of a matter of survival, just some leisurely or regarding luxury matters (read: predominantly physical possessions and financial stuff), but still I’m feeling at a loss somehow.

Change and the apprehension of it is still the main theme at the moment… probably future planning as well.

Well, it’s like: I have my dreams, goals and objectives, and on the other hand, I had my needs and wants. It’s kinda like a “mid/long-term” vs “short term” face-off. From time to time, achieving these mid/long-term goals aren’t as easy as we’d believe it to be. Sometimes, the environment changes, our surrounding changes, thing changes that our needs may be more demanding as before. But probably that’s not …

Yesterday, my friend asked of my sudden insistence of wanting things, unimportant things, now, my immediate reply was:

“This reflects how poor I am”

This is the truest statement that I ever made up until now.

Total screw up yesterday! Thanks to my itchy fingers, I interrupted the progress of my ADSL modem’s firmware upgrade. Now I can’t access the administration panel of my modem at all.

Luckily the modem still works @_@. But GAH!!! Pet peeves of my own misbehaviour.

Now I almost got my PC configured nicely :), will be working on ideas of my own website.

Dead confused today X_X||.

Nothing much happened today… just felt that there’s a lot of things that I don’t understand… a lot of things that I don’t know how to express…

Once blinded by the mind, once blinded by the heart

In search of the bridge where the soul lies

I have been spending most of my weekends staying at home getting my Gentoo Linux running. What I didn’t expect is that compiling software is a painfully long process T_____T.

Up until now, I only set up part of my system, which can barely fullfil my computing needs. There’s still tons of packages that I need to compile before it’s becomes complete.

But anyway, it gave me a lot of time to gain some real Linux experience (that’s a very sugar-coated way to say that I’m having a nightmare when I faced some major stumbling blocks :p). That gave me enough reason only to recommend Gentoo only to intermediate Linux users and everyone else should be much more appreciative with the easier install route provided by most distros.

Technical stuff …