It seems that every single time I had holiday and that I had no activities or programmes scheduled, I’d end up doing some major house keeping. ^-^||

Same goes for today, and it’s can be quite tasking.

As much as one of my own small little dreams is to own a house of my own, somehow thinking about the house upkeep and the work behind it does seem kinda… umm, intimidating :p.

Maybe I’m better off planning for an apartment instead? Does made me wonder though :).

Time to rewind the tapes again, been very tired these days X_X.

Anyway, apparently I got my chance of flying more sooner than what I have expected :D. Not to mention that I get to go to Tioman Island (one of the most famous tourist destination in Malaysia, popular for it’s beautiful sea and beaches), which is one place that I really wanted to go for a long while.

And so the story goes that on Friday, my boss wanted to fly (as in, as a caption/pilot) and he offered Francis to fly with him. And for some reasons I got tagged along by him. Originally my boos is reluctant to take me on at first, knowing that I haven’t flew before and that the weather is pretty bad these days (with …

开启一个未知晓的门，到底会通往到一个怎么样的世界？

Opening the door of the unknown, what will be on the other side?

Fed up with the normal ho-hum life: Been rejected too many times, over analysing and reasoning too many times, been living with a heavy heart too many times.

All that hurt and pain, “for what?” I asked. All I get in return is just a false assurance that I’m still by your side and a bunch of hypothetical thoughts about you and me. And for all I know is that I’m shutting myself in that safety zone that I have never, ever seen the surroundings of your heart, let alone the door that goes there.

Being stagnant for too long, it’s time to break out!

I wanted to be able to talk to you! Listen to you! Touch you! Feel you! See you! Be with you! No matter how long will it …

To be extremely honest, I weren’t feeling good today… been feeling like all emo. Not that’s I’m sad or depressed, just that I get a little bit frustrated over myself.

I think that’s about it.

Oh crap! I accidentally scratched my (miss)understood CD T__T. The reflective part, as in. As much it seemed that only the surface paint got scratched and it still plays perfectly, but still… heart breaks

Well… the only consolation is that the CD will be quite easily available for a long time to come, but then again, it’s still quite expensive.

Anyway…

Currently spending time converting all my CD collection to AAC format, as my iPod is currently running out of space. Considering the fact that it almost saves me 10MB per CD and that I have about 130+ in my collection, that’s about 1 extra GB of space for more music.

But GAH! It’s a lot of work.

… And it better don’t scratch another of my prized CDs T-T.

Let’s see… it’s not even the beginning of April and most parts of my salary went to my expenses. Well, it’s a good thing that I’m able to pay off my bills without any debt :), and not to worry about them for the rest of the month.

Went shopping today for a surge protector for my electronics (read: computers), together with a new switch and a network card which is replacing the burnt network card of my OTHER computer. Well, for one thing, I think I might not buy another Linksys product: they seemed to be waaaay too sensitive to power surges.

Then, I have been splurging money on CDs again :p. Grabbed Ayu’s (miss)understood fresh from the shelves today :), then grabbed Penny Tai’s Crazy Love (戴佩妮 // 爱疯了 …

Somehow I just feel like things are just getting more challenging… In terms of my own working and personal life.

Work wise, well, my probation period ends once I survived through April. It’s pretty an exciting thought, really. However, it’s not really the end of my probation period but more of the beginning of my own working life. And I know that once I reach that milestone, there’s more things ahead of me: both opportunities and challenges. It did really made me nervous somehow… it’s like, the more you start to settle down at one point, the more you’ll able to see that things are constantly moving and changing. As much as I’m glad that I’m in a comfort zone by its own right, it’s pretty hard …

One of the funniest realisation today is that the actual reason I kept a distance with the person that I’m closely (and secretly) intimate with is not much of a virtue of respecting others, but most due to the fact that it’s my physical/sexual arousal that I fear that I’ll “eat” them up :p.

Silly hormones :).

And I can’t believe that I’ve been through all this unnecessary struggle for the past 6 years… even until now ^-^||.

As much as I have experienced and believed that platonic relationships exists… well, I don’t mind getting the whole package :p.

… I hope this is not wishful thinking ;p.

Two days back home, just a good place to exercise my complete laziness.

Like… lying on the sofa for hours, watching anime, making trips to the fridge… Not really feeling like entertaining anyone during that time, just wanted rest completely.

Some springs were wounded too tight all this while, I suppose? Even now I still haven’t feel really recharged.

Ah well…

Speaking of which, our house is almost done, all the bricks are in place, all it needs is just all the minor details which makes it beautiful instead of just being mere useful :).