What’s the difference between reality, fantasy and a dream?

If that’s the case, I swear that I’d never leave my body cold for a long period of time. That includes sleeping without my clothes on.

In case anyone’s wondering, I caught a cold today, which worsens throughout the day. Been sneezing and handling my running nose almost the whole afternoon, which saw my health goes at a very fast, deteriorating pace.

I can’t even do without any tissue paper for even one second. Blegh!

The cause of the problem, just out of my whim I decided to sleep with my shirt off. But it was pretty cold through the night as there’s a desk fan whirling at full speed, aiming quite close to me, and the night seems to be pretty cold. And it seems that the blanket didn …

Heavy clouds on my head just now for no apparent reason… or is it really without reason at all…?

It’s one of those days that I just felt like I’m sluggish, being left behind in a way or the other. Or just plainly frustrated that I didn’t get things my way, from one perspective?

I’m just plain confused now: is it that I’m feeling angry that I wasn’t given the things I wanted? Or is it I’m feeling angry with myself for not achieving something?

At times like this, I just felt impatient: to a point that deep down, I just wanted to rush there and grab whatever I wanted, without considering the situation and the people around. Just letting my own greed and desires to devour myself …

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From Osho Times Online: Your Answers Quetioned on Emotions (Apr 30, 2006 Issue)

Lovable You — Warts ’N All!

I feel caught up in deep shame feelings about my body. I have a hormonal imbalance which makes it quite hairy, and I don’t like my weight. Before, I was thin — I still didn’t like it.

Nothing is wrong in being hairy, mm? And nothing is wrong in being fat! They are just …

I’m back after 4 days over my parents’ place. Nothing happened except the fact that I spent almost all my time lying down on the couch or bed.

Although physically it looked as seems as I’m at rest, but honestly speaking it’s more of the fact that I just felt heart heavy… I don’t know, it just seems that I’m living at two different places, feeling split into two somehow. I just didn’t felt being completely at home at all.

Just missing that somebody…

But anyway, my sister is back for a 2 months school holiday and the new house is done minus the furniture and EVERYTHING in our temporary house O_O||. The ceiling turns out to be way too low for us (knowing that our family members are …

［缘起篇］
就在高楼丛林中
看到一片
 漂浮的落叶

［迷失篇］
没地心吸力的空间，迷迷糊糊的被风儿飘荡
 没方向感的宿命，到底静止的终站在何方？

［自由篇］
 就让我在天空吧！那么的一刹那也好！

[Chapter: Beginning]
Among the forest of towers
I saw
The floating leaf

[Chapter: Lost]
In a space without gravity, being drifted away by the wind dreamily
A destiny without any sense of directions, where’s the silent stop…?

[Chapter: Freedom]
Let me be at the sky! Even if it’s just for one short while!

Yesterday has been a very, very bad day for me that my stress levels goes to a point that I really snapped and broke down into tears. Not really a good sight, to be honest.

Somehow there’s a lot of emotions being held back, a lot of worries and fears not address… maybe it’s due to the fact that I don’t want anyone to worry about me, or probably it’s just me afraid of letting these emotions being expressed among people, friends and family even.

This made me realised that both the adult side of me and the inner child within still exists. Did made me pondered about that point… knowing how much internal anguish are being created by myself when I was small.

Probably it’s just how I see …

A lot of stuff that needs to be done, to a point of frustration X_X||.

Just seems that work just kept on piling and coming my way that I just felt very stressed out.

And thinking that going back to my hometown this Thrusday may not be helping to relieve stress… probably it will cause the opposite, if I didn’t manage my stress level/workload well.

Really feel dead at some point, but seeing that I’m surviving, guess I can cope with it. After all, this isn’t the first time I ever have myself in this kind of crisis.

In other news, got my modem back yesterday, but it’s not working! >_<|| So I’d need to send it back… I’m kinda worried because I’m not sure whether is …

有些时候，有些问题时只有自己明白，只有自己才能解决。

Sometimes, there’s some problems that only oneself is capable to comprehend, only oneself is capable to solve by him/herself.

Guess not having the Internet isn’t really made me being lazy back home afterall :p, instead I have been ironing things out and settling some matters.

Busy, busy, busy!

It does seem to me that this month is just full of stuff to complete.

It’s pretty a pleasant surprise to see Sze Hau and Vivian in the office yesterday :). Somehow I was expecting that I might be the only one in the office. But anyway, probably I might become a temporary workaholic for a few weeks, considering that I definitely need to iron out my testing work ASAP.

I do forsee that it’s going to be busy for a few more weeks/months, but I’m sure I’ll be OK as everything is workable. I do have to say that the …