Sometimes how people treat you in person mirrors how you really treat others.

When people asked about how my ideal other would be like, my answer is much less of a description of an ideal partner, but, with a closer look, it’s much more about my ideal self.

The weather has been extremely unpredictable lately, it’s like… one moment it scorching hot, then you get to see clouds that makes the city looked eerily like the cursed land of Mordor and soon after you get rain so heavy that it really made the rain looked like curtains.

And with the recent developments in life, my emotional scale still remain as unstable, as much as everything is improving at the moment. These days just seemed that… I don’t know, I kinda lose some balance in life that I get disappointed more easily by obstacles in front of me.

As much as I understand that the only person whom is to be responsible for my own life and its problem is myself, but yet at times I really wanted someone just hold me …

有时心里想要拥有的当时，同时害怕拥有的念头会存在。

这和害怕失去的心情很相似吧！

Sometimes when I wanted something, the fear of owning it exists at the same time.

Seems that this feeling is similar to the fear of losing something.

As much as this seems like I’m going to talk about my job (although the rest of the post sounds to be like it), this post is about something else:

At times I really felt like kicking myself for being dumb.

By all means there’s lots more room for me to explore and learn… and bump into random walls along the way.

It seems that joining the ranks of sneezes and coughs, mouth ulcers is another one of the most frequent health related problems/annoyances that I face almost once a month.

And this time round I got one big one (around 20~25mm) on the very right corner of the inner lip, and that’s really no fun. As much I’m relieved that that part of the lip weren’t as sensitive as the middle part of the lip (I didn’t felt much pain on the ulcer, to be honest), but it really felt that as if my mouth is going to leak from the right corner.

Reminds me of the days around two decades back.

Looking it up in Wikipedia, I really wondered whether is it my toothpaste, the recent stress levels I …

Sometimes I just can’t feel anything but a little bit self conscious.

Somehow I’m starting to see and being aware of my own shortcomings and the constraints that I have to live with.

That’s pretty much all I can say at the moment.

I’m still very dependent to a lot of things that I’m brought up with.

Somehow I had my own little secrets with you :), although some of them that I would be very embarrassed to admit ^^||.

After getting an ironing board and a steam iron, I’m now pondering how did I survived without them for the past year 😛 (with a normal iron with a large table surface as my “board”).

But not without some accidents though, as I didn’t realized that leaving the iron horizontally would cause water leakage, which really gave me a wet mess ^-^||.

And so the manual did said that I have to keep it on its heels when I’m not using it.

I’m still kinda working out my ironing skills, by all means these should make my ironing tasks much easier and faster :).