许多时候，都会羡慕身边的欢笑和快乐。也因如此倍感寂寞。

或许，身边的爱与幸福也一样吧！

A lot of times, I felt envious to the fun and laughter around myself. And also because of that I felt even lonelier.

Perhaps, that’s pretty much the same situation with the love and happiness around me.

Just watched The Da Vinci’s Code :), and apparently it was a pretty good movie. Well, probably due to the fact that I didn’t read the book yet and I have less reasons to have myself disappointed about (like the Harry Potter movies :p). But treating most parts as fiction and not involving any sentimentality/emotions/opinions to it (well, probably due to the fact that I’m not a Christian myself?), it’s really interesting to ponder about religion, politics and how belief will affect one’s judgement towards certain matters. That alone is a very vast area to actually put into words and it definitely worth some thought later on.

And in other news, I just got myself Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince :D… of course that pretty much implied …

Remember Theen Gee, my friend and short-term room mate last year around the month of May (as well)? 😊 His now back, he’ll be sharing my room for a month before moving to his rented room :).

And the good news that he is now graduated and will be working for The Star.

And it’s going to be a great month to be experienced. And I really enjoyed talking and sharing life experience with him always :). And just talking with him sometimes really made me discovered new insights within myself and in a way, change my life in a subtle manner.

Well~ he came with his younger brother, although he is quite quiet, but he’s also very friendly. And seeing the close bond between them, the warmth is pretty contagious. 😊

Going to watch Da …

“Sometimes, surprises comes from the places when you least expected to see it”

My body is now showing signs of being worn out (i.e. becoming weak and prone to sickness), and sometime by the evening I felt really like catching a fever or a flu ._.

But some rest definitely helped as I felt better, at least for now.

Definitely need to take good care of my body :).

In other news, I got two more CDs from eBay today: SEB 95 as well as Nicki French’s Total Eclipse of The Heart :D.

Through communication I’m starting to notice filters of my own that tinted my perception from seeing the real picture. However, were I to say something about it, would it be seeing the situation through another filter?

Just in case, I got a surge protector for my house phone + ADSL connection, and since I need to get it grounded somewhere, I end up with a solution like this one:

Hmm…. I really wondered whether this is going to work.

As for today, I felt pretty much on a tight rope today. Got very confused in several occasions… Does made me feel like shrinking back to my own shell or something… Sigh… challenges can sometimes be hard to cope with some times.

In other news~ Dr Tay has just become a father to a baby boy! 😄

Back online again :), I hope I’m not going to do another ADSL modem warranty again.

It’s been a few days that I’m able to actual sit/lie down, relax and letting myself wandering around… soul searching and thought drifting. Well… you know, it’s almost lying down on a lush grass plane while watching the clouds pass by… just that the qualities are different in terms of context :).

Somehow up to this point of life… I had that feeling that my life is constantly changing… It’s kinda of funny feeling, to be honest: It’s like, sometimes, when I just silently sit down, I just had some visions of where I’d be… in which I definitely had no idea whether is it a hunch of my own or is it …

If anyone’s wondering what happened three days back, put it simply, what happened is this: My ADSL modem, not one, but both modems that I owned, gone “kaput” (i.e. dead). Or at least one of them is a confirmed death and I’m getting a friend to test the other to really make sure.

And it’s a very, very unbelievable coincidence that both died at the same time, and I’m back to my “No Internet Days” that I have experienced a few weeks back (around 3 weeks? I suppose).

So the whole cycle was to be repeated again: me taking leave to get one of them repaired, wait for the test results from my friend; if it’s dead, send it for warranty and wait for a month… Stuff like that …

Yesterday was a tiring day for me, probably due to the fact that I didn’t get enough sleep for almost the whole week. And the accumulating stress didn’t help much. Sometimes, working something on a very long period just give me that dangling thought of getting it done, which in turn gave me some unnecessary stress?

Then just soon after I reached home and decided to have my dinner and rest, “POOF!”, and complete darkness. Just one of those very, very rare occurrence of a black out. And my mom called me while I’m busy inspecting the mains, but later on I was so tired that I didn’t called her back as promised. I just slumped back into my bed.

My thoughts and mood gets very muddled these days as I …