For the past few days, I have been working on my finances that I felt like an accountant :p.

The real news? My probation period is now officially over and I did get some extra money :D. But I do need to wait until my payslip arrives before I can confirm anything in black and white (as well as a basis to plan out where they should go).

Well… at least I don’t have to worry about my emergency funds any more :), I had save enough! 😄

Have lost myself once through seeking, yet having found myself later on through seeking.

I’m matured… in theory, that is :p.

Ha ha, I’m into my splurging mood again and I got the DVD <3<3<3. I watched it once thanks to my brother a few months back (a downloaded fansub, obviously :p), and I did made a comment about it a few months back so I don’t want to repeat myself again.

One of the great things that I’m very appreciative for is that they kept the Japanese audio track intact together with the English one :D! Too bad they didn’t have Japanese subtitles or I would have worshipped them XD. (but the only use of those kind of subtitles are just for me to learn my Japanese, and guess I have to struggle my way through to catch what they are saying without any text scripts)

Obviously I watched …

What is sex, a phenomena so beautiful and yet so obsessive to a point of perversion?

Or is it that we have came to a point which physical touch has been so tainted with delusions that a touch is never a real touch anymore? Or is it that we started to forget the grandeur and beauty of our own bodies that we have to achieve satisfaction from others…?

Guess that’s the vast complexity of human nature ^-^||.

Finally I got time to finish the whole Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince (I was halfway through the book after my weekday reading before my working hours)! I was initially glad that the whole flow, structure and even the storyline construct has the same magical feeling like the first four books (The Order of the Phoenix, in my opinion, is more or less a diversion of writing style).

But somehow, after reading the whole thing… I just felt that, unlike the first four books, it’s really a book that you can’t read it in a standalone fashion and it really gave me the feeling that Book 5 (The Order of the Phoenix) to Book 7 (which is ultimately going to be the last book) are so closely tied together (with all the …

Bah… my health isn’t getting any better lately X_X. Just feeling like draggin’ myself all day long these days. I’m not entirely sure whether is it the weather, my personal diet or my lack of exercise these days, but definitely it really needs me to work things out now!

In other news, well… it wasn’t really anything interesting or extremely upbeat, I bet most people around me had heard a lot of my stress rants lately X_X. No thanks to an approaching deadline with my repair work half done X_X. Not to mention that I haven’t started my documentation work yet!

That aside… Well… just say that I’m still piecing the puzzle of the things around me. Somehow being a person like me who treats life as the ultimate sandbox …

Sometimes, being close to another person is like exploring a completely different world.

Without maps, without guidance, we chart the earth unknown to us. And as we start to feel satisfied with some small treasure we found, some unexpected elements in that world will give us the realisation that there’s a far bigger world in them.

That’s… the greatest adventure in one’s life :).

Feeling a taste of bitterness… Being jealous.

As much as I understand everyone needs their own space and privacy… but sometimes… sigh I really don’t know how to say. Just felt all bitter inside me without any strong basis to be disappointed about.

That really made me think… whether is it that I don’t know what others are thinking, or that I don’t know what I’m thinking myself. 😞

It was a heavy-hearted day yesterday as it was Sook Lan’s last day in the company. It was kinda hard to bear seeing her empty desk right opposite me. For the past year, she has been given me a lot of support and a source of inspiration in dealing with myself and others. In many ways, I have looked up to her as a very close friend and mentor.

It was only a year since I worked here and having myself seeing people coming and going does make it more clear that… everyone is an individuals with different ideals and goals… and through the passing of time, it’s inevitable that everyone, in some way or the other, will move on and go separate ways.

Thinking about it… that pretty much includes myself… And …