Something that I really have to admit: I’m bad at remembering people in general. Or more specifically, I can only remember those who are pretty close to me and most acquaintance will pretty much have forgotten almost instantly.

Personally, in order for me to really know somebody, I just need some sort of connection. You know, breaking the ice, talking or interacting with each other and getting to know a bit of the individual does help in forging the memory of someone else.

Sometimes… well, if something was to be recalled, it really has to go into specifics, like something I would definitely REMEMBER XD.

Well, but it’s great to know and meet somebody who have some sort of connection in the past. And if either one of us can’t recall this …

I’m still playing catching up at the moment. Everything seemed normal but in actual fact I’m still struggling to get work done X_X.

And yeah for me screwing up stuff X_X||.

In other news, why do I always need some sort of signal before I’d EVER make my first move… X_X I’m not really sure whether is it just me being overly-perfectionist style of making sure that I get things right or I’m just finding excuses to cover the fact that I had chickened out.

People can be just unpredictable at times.

GAH! Just got a bombshell from the boss today O_O||: I’d need to suspend my current testing and was expected to complete my programming task during this week O_O||. Not to mention that it was scheduled for 9 days and I only have about 3 days to complete it! X_X

To be fair, I’m already way behind schedule in work due to several factors, my mistake actually to underestimate certain things. And considering that my work is blocking the payment schedule (as in collecting payments for the work we had done), there’s no room for me to argue anything.

Sigh… I wonder whether I’m able to pull this off nicely. _O_

Anyway, in other news, I really wondered whether guys will take “cute” as a compliment? He has definitely made my day today for that :).

Thinking about it, understanding can also be one of man’s greatest desires: In which, in this ever-changing world, complete understanding is an addiction that cannot be fulfilled.

Somehow, think about what I have written in the past, somehow I was under the impression that I perceived that our own perception may not be that reliable as a source of the truth… sometimes thinking that it might be completely false, even (i.e. the Illusion).

So, thinking about it, what makes something true? What makes something false? Social identification and recognition doesn’t make something true. Experience doesn’t make something completely true. Belief, as said, is just a mere hypothesis (or on the extreme end, it can be a baseless hope). Perception is a stimulation of our own senses, which is a partial truth to what we are living in.

Maybe it’s a good time to ponder things through deeply, hmm? 😊 (possibly some good drifting thought material)

Just one of my better scribbles that I done just now:

Well… I’m not sure why I would draw this, I sorta let myself flow with my own sense, I suppose? Guess I can call that “art”? 😛

I’m not going to repeat myself how busy I was (and how much behind I am in terms of work schedule X_X).

Anyway, somehow I’m still keeping my books on my head. Boring accounting work, they say :p. Apparently, with my long wish list on my head, sometimes I get a bit impatient with my own progress, I guess ^^||.

Speaking of which, it’s been a year and two months since I started work, being through a lot of different experiences throughout this period. I don’t think I have written this down in my LJ during that time, but I still remembered the time when I received the job offer, I said to myself that I’m giving myself two years and decide where I would go later. And now… well… I …

Belief is only a hypothesis, experience is only a process and perception is only a conclusion.

If our so-called “reality” is only a perceived reality and not reality by itself, then what really constitute the real truth?

= 768MB of RAM!

Just got myself 512 MB of RAM for my PC, and it’s not that it goes without any hiccups. But I have to ask the motherboard to “tolerate” with them (as in, enabling the RAM tolerance option :p) and it just works fine :).

I’m not sure how far the speed performance will go, I didn’t expect much apart from the times when my machine is on heavy load. But it’s nice to have that upgraded :). (which I believe that that’s what I would need for my existing compy at the moment)

At least I can have some extra fun with things that are memory hogs :p.

[P/S: Hope no one noticed that I made a math blunder :p]

Trying to be oneself is hard enough, so don’t try to be someone else.