Let’s see… these day my stomach get upset very easily. Not sure whether it is because of my protein rich diet I have been keeping these day, or probably because I’m not having enough vegetables. And it really felt like… I have been feeling more and more uncomfortable with my digestive system isn’t working well these days.

So I’m like… not really sure what should I do, as I’m still on my weight gaining plans. It seemed that I can’t handle a protein rich diet, so I need to figure out some way to gain way in a gradual manner which will not upset my stomach.

And speaking of which, I went to Saisaki, a restaurant specializing in Japanese buffet, with my office friends (Sze Hau, Kok Weng, Yuan …

It’s not that I’m sad or anything… it’s not even that the smile on my face is fake… Somehow… on the surface of things, in a way I’m indeed happy with my own life.

But at times when I was on my own… at those times when I dwell deeper and deeper into my own being, I can’t seem to find that smile deep down in my heart. I pretty much notice that what I have written down in my LJ is much more of the deeper aspect of myself, I’m starting to notice that the happy smileys that I have typed… doesn’t really mean a real smile from within.

That pretty much made me noticed that there’s a lot of issues that I’m not really …

At the moment, I had somehow lost a clear sight of what I want… well, in terms of my own future advancements. My perception is foggy at the moment that I’m not sure what I want and what’s my worries. It’s pretty hard for me to work the equation out, probably because I’m facing something new in my own life?

Or probably my brain needs some sort of organization now? ^^||

Time to get more rest, been having that sensation of getting sick today :(.

Rest, that’s what I need at the moment :). And probably more water :p.

I think it’s time for me to really refrain from making off-colour jokes… or a least figure out how to refine that :p.

But after some thought, it does stem from the sexual void I’m having… well, much less of a physical factor but more on a emotional level, I guess. But somehow I think that gap is filled up with all the jokes that I’m making, I still have issues to deal with, but it’s much more managable now.

It takes some time, I suppose :).

Yesterday I went to a property fair (yes, I do mean “real estates” alright), and the thing is that I have completely clueless when it comes to real estates and properties XD. It’s like… it’s a completely new thing to me, I didn’t know what shall I look for even.

That pretty much made me looked like a brainless poor soul :p.

At the moment, I’m not sure what will be my future plans. There’s enough subtle changes (some that I’m even aware of myself, to be honest) that I’m still finding myself adjusting to them, I guess (probably would post them in detail in my drifting thoughts posts in the future).

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Well, chaos not as in my life a complete ruin or mess. Everything’s fine here.

But more like… how I see my present situation is more like a unpredictable and random board of chess. Not that anything bad has happen in some way or the other, but somehow… well, how should I put it… things turning out much different from what I have expected.

Or, in another way of putting it, the shattering of a planned storyline in the head, I suppose.

Somehow I’m still feeling a bit nervous somehow, it’s like… I’m starting to find myself exposing to a bigger world than I thought. And looking at myself at the moment, it’s like… I have been staying in my own my space for a long time, and I’m …

Somehow at the moment my expenses has pretty much crept up to a point it’s eroding my savings. Well, not by a serious margin, but these few months I have been spending quite a lot of stuff. Currently books, CDs and some new comfort necessities (food and clothes).

But apparently I didn’t expect that I have to buy some new working clothes. But having an ironing accident with one of my shirts and I had only a week supply of shirts (that doesn’t require a lot of ironing, that is), I bought two extras to replace it. And now my base of my leather shoes is showing signs of falling off (and it wasn’t the first time already), I need to get another pair pretty soon. 😞

To be honest, I’m …

或许，自己从某些层面来说都在期待着一个“意外”吧。

Maybe, from a certain perspective I’m am still expecting an “accident”.

I’m starting to have some writer’s block on blogging. Not sure whether is that a good thing or not XD.

Currently tying up loose ends in sorting out a programming task, hopefully I can get it right by tomorrow, but the last bit can be a little bit challenging, to be honest. I’m starting to be able to understand more Japanese speech when I’m watching anime, which is a good thing. But I’m still slacking off with my self study ^-^|||.

Been at Universiti Malaya today as our department was organizing a workshop there, and I was really impressed at how big the campus was :D. It’s really like a small world to explore on its own. Too bad I’m there for work, otherwise I would have wandered around …