Is it that whatever I see is the reality, or is it just a mere projection of what I wanted to see…?

或许…自己也晓得自己的那一道防线已经开始崩裂：以后会发生些什么，自己也不晓得吧。

Maybe… I already knew that that protective wall of mine has already started to crumble: What will happen next, that’s something even I myself can’t forsee.

Letting go means one of the two things: Either admitting your defeat or that you give out your all in achieving something.

Either way, it’s probably something that comes by force; but by the totality of one’s realisation.

Let’s see… It has been weeks I last went to the gym due to many reasons, guess I broke the “fast” yesterday 😛

And after a full year, finally our department don’t have to work that hard to get that ISO9001:2000 certification as we have been through the last certification audit. A successful achievement, I would say :).

And today we just went to Eden to have Vivian’s farewell party, which means that I have been seeing four people leaving from our office ever since I came in. It’s a very hard feeling to describe, it’s like… you know that a departure is inevitable, and yet I still have that mental vision that everyone will always be around. But that feeling aside, the food was really tasty over there :D. Love …

It’s much easier to be sleeping than to be awake…

A whole week up there at Genting, phew, that’s really something. There are panic moments, but as far as problems were concerned, there’s aren’t really big, so in a way I’m glad for that.

Throughout these days, I find myself dealing with more people than usual, dealing with suppliers, casino operators, authorities/managers, customers, friends and colleagues… Somehow it has been a different experience to me, along the way, my colleagues have been very supportive, helping along the way in dealing with people, protecting myself from any potential harm as well as taking things easy.

Being a little bit far away my own usual environment, it really opens up a different experience to me. Somehow the reflection of other people’s actions as well as just the mere existence of my …

即使问自己多少个“为什么“，也无法否认自己所”渴望“的东西。

No matter how many “why’s” I asked myself, I’m unable to deny what I really “desired”.

A bright world? A dark world? I thought they are indeed the same world, then why there’s a separation between the two?

What is the thing that we call “respect towards others”?

Is it really something honourable and noble? Or is it something that we used to rationalize our fears?

There are times when my own short comings bounced back on me in the form of the actions of others.

Sometimes, looking things from a different perspective and a different point of view, how do I see myself in the past and present?

Had I changed now? Or is it something that I needed to change? Somehow, that realization and response is probably something that I needed at the moment.