Two words would describe what I’m feeling now: EXTREMELY BUSY! @_@” Well… taking care of several things and to take responsibility is definitely an experience to me. (well… at least to handle responsibility is an experience to me XDDDD)

But thinking about it, it a good thing, since being able to take up responsibilities means that you have the choice to do whatever you pursue and liked :3. (well… if you didn’t enjoy it, most probably it would have been work/burden/duty, blah blah blah…)

Yeah, sometimes the responsibility is so heavy that one might feel overwhelmed many times, and sometimes it might seems like suffering. But looking at it from another angle, it only shows that responsibility and freedom often come hand in hand: In order to attain financial freedom, you …

Considering how I was treated while I’m extremely sickly when I was a kid, I couldn’t bear the worries I had when Erika felt weak today.

Anyway, now I’m at home, savouring some great music :3. Homework has yet to be done, but I suppose I better give myself some whipping to start things up a little XDDD.

Anyway, I was feeling like learning this song. This has to be one of my favourite Ayumi Hamasaki song, so I just feel like posting the lyrics (translated one, taken down from Divine Ayu).

M / Ayumi Hamasaki

“Maria” There is someone I should love; every person who has ever been hurt…

As I look around, everyone busily hurries on by.

I noticed that this year, too, the signs of winter have come very soon …

This is not the first time I heard this question… This is not the first time I heard people questioning their own existence… This is not the first time I heard people hoping that they would not exist…

I have been through all this at least once… And yet I can’t seem to comprehend the reason…

Why the despair? Why the agony? …Why?

They said that the beauty of life is of the freedom of choice of humans And yet we just can’t choose in our favourable form of existence… But then again… how can we define what we like if we didn’t born to exist…?

(…to be continued in some “Today’s Drifting Thoughts” section… when the time has cometh)

Sometimes I really wished that I’m able to provide answers …

Just some recap of past events:

• Just finished my numerical analysis computer programming assignment, now what I need is to run a few tests, debug, and I’m done with it 😸
• Been chatting with Johnson just now, and he pretty much talked about work related stuff. But somehow we drift into some deep philosophical thoughts that really interest me. I’m keep them in my head for Today’s Drifting Thought ideas :p.

As a footnote, I’m not going to touch any real alcoholic drinks anymore (unless on special occasions), since I have pretty much 101% sure that I definitely can’t stand even less than one glass of beer to get drunk (at least physically). Honestly with my sensitivity/allergies with most thing with an -ol appended at the back of it, make …

NOTHING’S GONNA TAKE MY LOVE FROM YOU / KAREN (from SEB18)

(Also covered by Nuage and D&D [Retitled as In Your Eyes])

Watching you this morning
Everything is shining
What a joy to have you
By my side

Turn your head and tell me
“I just need to hold you”
Let me see your loving
In your eyes

* Eyes that give me passion now as they
Call me thru the night
Nite that till tomorrow shines in my heart
Just to tell ya

** Nothing’s gonna take my love from you babe
Anything that matter now is today
I would never let you go believe it
I wanna take and deceive (sic.) it

Nothing’s gonna take my love from you now
Nothing’s gonna hide the moon of this nite
I would never …

You gave me so much courage
It’s really hard for me to cry
You gave me so much happiness
It’s really hard for me to feel sad
You gave me so much strength
It’s really hard for me to show my pain

… I see you
smiling back at me
The very same smile you had all the while
And yet it wasn’t the same smile that I used to know…

…I see you…
So close, yet so distant
As if your eyes are telling me
“My job is done”

I seem to hear your silent voice
Saying to me softly…
That I’m already able
To be on my own

I seem to notice your eyes
Telling me kindly…
That I’ll be there… watching you
To be happy and alive …

Anyone needs a guess why I put this journal title again? 😛 Some habits are just that hard to improve.

Walking in the rain isn’t totally fun, especially when you need to walk for about 30 minutes in the rain (in total). Other than that, well… life’s pretty much normal. Although I do hate when Alfred keeps on piling stuff on my table to read (as if I’ll be able to magically make those code examples work together as a totally working and perfect program in one second).

Anyway, guess I should be back to work now. Ja ‘ne!

Sometimes taking some time to leave my mind blank to piece up some of my thought fragments just made me wonder quite a lot. It just seems to me that there’s always things… which seems to come and go… and revisit again for a while. It seems that when you thought when you got hold of it, it suddenly slips away from you.

For now, it seems that all the things which happens to me just seemed to dissolve away… something. I don’t know what is being dissolved, yet I know it exists. Strange, huh? I just can’t seem to comprehend all these abstract thoughts… Some times I just can’t stop but wonder what do we call as knowledge, and what do we call as wisdom?

Currently I’m trying… trying …

Scene: A tired Felix sitting in front of the computer, while enjoying his fair share of sushi ^^. Yum!

Thoughts: Fleeting thoughts… revolving a sense of sorrow, yet the sorrow seems so beautiful, seemingly to cherish every small things in life…

Work: Nothing less of a roller-coaster ride itself. But at least my reading list doesn’t get piled up lately.

School: The usual: ASSIGNMENTS!!!! screams and run around in circles Japanese class tomorrow, it’ll be greetings this week ^^.

Internet-Related Event: If there’s no accident, you can catch me on MSN during work. Of course, don’t type too much that my boss might feel suspicious ^^”. And secondly, Erika’s (sayinmango) having a LiveJournal 😊.

Family: Will be going back to my parents’ next Saturday <333.

Today’s a pretty fun day with my friends :), and it’s pretty exciting as Steven mentioned that there’s a special guest named Jenny today. OK, before this, actually Steven asked me and a few friends of mine to go to a karaoke lounge, and so I agree to go (as much as my budget doesn’t allow me to… I’m bad :p).

And so… Damn I’m late :p. But yeah I do get a suprise, because the “Jenny” that Steven mentioned is actually Jacob, one of my best friends during college. (w00t!!! :D) It’s been quite a while I haven’t seen him, and I can only say that he didn’t changed much ever since I knew him. And not to mention that Erika, Soo Hoo, Rachael and a …