For the past few days, I haven’t been feeling extremely well… it’s like, I’m feeling some sort of emptiness that is started to engulf me… I wouldn’t say that it was depression, but it seems that it has potential to bring depression in. Sometime I do wonder though, this emptiness seems to be extremely neutral… it’s like… you can’t say that it was good and bad, it’s depends on how you look at it that matters. But then again… I really can’t see how can I take this positively…

Anyway… been overspending lately, I don’t know, somehow it did seem that buying things seems to be an escapist activity to me (at least from what I perceive it, anyway). But then again, it’s really hard …

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Just feeling so tired today yesterday that I spent most of the time sleeping. Not feeling really top notch physically, in fact I feel extremely sickly/sluggish. T^T

And somehow there’s a lot of things that I wanted to buy. I was introduced to ClubJapan which is pretty awesome because it has free shipping with 5% handling fees, which is far cheaper than the likes of CDJapan and HMV. The catch? Everything is in Japanese and I’m almost struggling because my Japanese skills are pretty limited. But somehow I manage to wade through the procedures and tried to buy PPP6 & 7 soundtracks from that site. Hopefully it’ll be a smooth transaction.

There’s just too much things I would want to buy… But anyway, I’ll be meeting up with William …

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Finally I reach home after a really bad traffic jam along the way.

Well… seeing this, I finally get some time to actually update my LJ a bit. There’s quite a lot of things happening this Chinese New Year, and it’s really a good one for me :). Lots of funs and laughs during the celebration, and being with my family and friends are always enjoyable.

First things first, my new look does got a lot of attention. And almost every single person who had seen me got a extremely big surprise and just seeing the looks of their face is pretty interesting XD. But pretty much the feedback is extremely positive and it’s really a plus in my books ^_^b.

Then the rest of the days are pretty much… well… full …

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Just a shortie. I’ll post details later.

• Chinese New Year is really fun ^^.
• Friends, Mahjong and sleepless nights 😛
• Won SEB80 and 90, w00tage! 😄
• The battery compartment of my digital camera is spoilt T-T. Which means now I can’t have the battery compartment closed without having rubber bands stranded to my camera >o<”. Thinking of claiming a warranty once I go back to my aunt’s place.
• My new look got a lot of attention and jaw drops XD.
• Extremely high sex drive is torturing me 😛

I think I’ll stop here now. Post more tommorrow or so.

All of a sudden, it seems that I accidently reopen the whole Pandora’s box hidden deep down in my heart. Sadness and confusion, about love, sex and sexuality, they seems to rush back to me… sweeping me away, not knowing anything. Hmm… It seems that everything seems to breakdown that it seems that I can either retain my old form, which I know that it’s more painful than it’s worth; or I can decide, embrace and gamble for a change. But honestly speaking… I really don’t know what to change… or do I need to change anything?

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Just to share something that I posted on the forum:

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Just my point of view, frankly speaking, how do we define sin? From the surface, we say that sin has to do with something …

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Just arrived home :). Gave a few shocks to my family members, but it’s really great to be back at home. It’s really fun actually, being able to talk with my family on a lot of things.

Of course… they do care about me in terms of relationship stuff. And… honestly speaking, it’s still a bit heartaching… but their intentions are good, so it’s pretty much OK.

Anyway, be meeting up my friends tommorrow at my highschool. Preparing for more shocks ;P.