It always seems to me that the people closest to me, usually friends, are mostly Libras. Hmmm…. Is it just me or I’m noticing some strange demographics around me :p.

Anyway, not much to do, but I do have my moments when I feel like I have go back to square one in some aspects. Nothing major though.

Finally I handed in my research assignment for the job. Phew! I was so nervous when I handed it in actually as I don’t really know what to expect from my boss. And what made me even more nervous is that he skimmed through it on the spot, and I feel like I have been exposed naked in a closed room surrounded with air-conditioners capable of blowing strong, cold air at sub-zero temperatures.

Apart from some mistakes on my part, I’m pretty glad that I did quite a good job, at least better than being mediocre. But of course I really don’t want to speculate how much marks I would get from there.

And saying so, that pretty much signifies a beginning when my real work and responsibilities will start :). I’m …

My friend, Kok Weng, got called in for the second phase of the interview test in my department today, I would really like to congratulate him for making this far and I’m really happy and proud of him :). I really wish him the best of luck! 😉

My friend, Raymond (and probably Alvin as well), left for Penang yesterday. Hopefully they will be treated well there, as (if I’m not wrong) they left their own homes for the very first time. I hope for the best in their first job as well as a great stay over there.

And as for Choon Hui… I’m really glad that he’s kick starting his own plans in furthering his studies, and he’s currently working on with his IELTS (so that he can study overseas …

I just watched Bicentennial Man just now and I just can’t stop feeling touched from end to end.

Anyway, just to spare you the story synopsis (I believe it’s not hard to find that DVD, rent or buy), I just go straight to the questions and thoughts that I would love to share. Honestly I won’t say much here, I believe reading between the lines of the dialogue and just watching the movie itself would give enough room to come out with a lot of thoughts and interpretation.

The first thing that came to mind is… what is it really like to be human? What is actually the good thing about being human in the first place? What is actually the purpose of being in existence…? … there’s just a lot of …

Currently I really feel like exploring some other areas in my own life and pondering some of the more harder thoughts that I have previously put aside. One of them being the concept of fear and self-confidence. Personally I haven’t really see my own “fear” eye-to-eye: In most cases I would have tried my best to avoid it. My own fear isn’t a fear of something really dangerous or scary, but of those which is much more closer to our own being: Fear of commitment, fear that arise due to inferiority complex, fear of losing the things that is the most important and we love most… These kinds of “soft fear” (in my own terminology, of course).

Just as a sidenote, I have been exposed into some of the Freudian concepts lately and …

Somehow I just feel as if everything is different, and yet everything is still the same.

I don’t know, there’ll be some definite changes in my life. I’ll be having my room all by myself again next week, that’s the most major one. My results will be out sometime in mid-June (I guess), and I wonder how I fared…

In the cycle of emotional calm and chaos, a sense of peacefulness seems to assure me that everything should be OK, no matter what comes.

There are a lot of things that I doubt about myself, there are a lot of things that I don’t understand about myself… as I just stare at the blue sky on the top of my head.

I kept wondering… what my future goes? Where am …

To be honest, today’s drifting thoughts post isn’t totally brought by me in the first place. Actually most of the points here are presented by Theen Gee when he was talking to someone else and his words really caught me because he really manage to crystallise this thought so well, and it really captures my attention since I agree with it totally. Anyway, basically what I have typed here is my own interpretation of the same thing (and should not be confused as what he actually said because his presentation is totally different from mine) and I’m just typing it in just to contain it before I forget it totally.

Anyway, in continuation with my short drifting thoughts post, I do mention about something regarding putting on extra unnecessary layers on top …

FIRST.PAY.CHEQUE! <3<3<3

Oh gosh this is exciting :D. I should be hyper excited right now if not the fact that I have insurance and other expenses to pay off this month :p. But it’s OK since I do have a lot of room to spare for some small goodies for myself ^^.

But at the same time probably 12836128631 items in my wishlist has to be put on hold at the moment XDDDD. Guess putting reality into the picture does make my base pay extremely low XDDDD. But then again, nobody says that entertainment has to have a higher priority than survival ;).

Now all I need is to shove away most of my money before my shopaholic habit kicks in :p.

OK, the title has nothing to do with my emotional state, but I was literally describing the weather today as the wind blows really strong today this afternoon. It almost seems like a typhoon is coming as the violent gush of cold wind blows through any opening window that it can enter. Although it wasn’t as strong to the point of blowing anything flying around the place, but the cold is greatly unbearable that I have to go to my room with all my windows shut tight.

As for my day… well, things are a little bit unproductive, but it’s pretty good for a time when I’m feeling slightly tired throughout the day. And by any chance, tomorrow’s another day :).