Poem in Prose: never wanting to be awake

there’s times,
when one is almost inconsolable
engulfing heart throbs
a strong pain from within

looking up at the stars
with teary eyes
alone on the street
a sense of loneliness from within

reaching out of a mirage of you
a close smiling face that
could never be reached
a painful yearning from within

calling out your name
only echoes of my own helplessness
rings back to me
who’s going to answer back to me?

oh, wishing star
where could you be
at this moment of complete despair?
a darkness that cannot be dispelled
by millions of stars far away

was becoming strong
the only answer to continue on?
yet i felt as if hope alone
will never be a float
keeping me from drowning

despite a pride
that will never accept
yet somehow
pity seemed so relishing

why is it so?
why is it so…?
drowning myself with sympathies
i fall back to sleep again…