Today’s Drifting Thoughts: Living like Drifting Thoughts

Seh Hui Leong

Reflections

Been living as if I’m drifting afloat, trying to collect fragments along the way. Although from the outset it seems that nothing that happened, let alone a few slips of emotions… deep down I know there’s that inexpressible feelings… nor would it bring much help if I expressed it anyway. Besides… how “emptiness” can be expressed?

What about those heart pricks? Not something anybody could help, I think… at most they can do is just to ease the pain a little. At most people is capable to “understand” how you feel, but not being able to “share” the pain… as “pain” is something individual and cannot be shared.

Somehow I’m thinking whether my concept of “dying” means “not turning back”… if that’s the case, what’s the thing that was to be “turning back from”? Somehow I can’t figure out something “life fulfilling” that can be considered as a “place” that you’ll not turn back once you reached.

Probably… I’m searching “my way home”.

- the constant enquiry -

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Seh Hui Leong

Python programmer by trade, interested in a broad range of creative fields: illustrating, game design, writing, choreography and most recently building physical things. Described by a friend as a modern renaissance man.

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