Today’s Drifting Thoughts: FRAGILE: 小さな悲しみ [My Small Sorrow]
Life’s going on as usual, with everything’s OK on the outset. Is it that I became stronger? Or that I didn’t really cared? Or I have gotten used to live with my heart wounded?
As much it’s not being expressed in anyway, I know that small sadness that sounds like a whimper, that ache that seems to have everything ground to diamond dust… those familiar little feelings within.
“…Life have to go on, no matter how the circumstances are at the moment…”
Is it that I’m starting to get used to this kind of feeling? Or is it that I have endured the greatest pain way before yesterday: rehearsed to a point that it seemed more bearable?
“… Am I more happier this way…?”
“… If I were to move forward, where should I go…?”
As much I’m already happy with whatever I have on the peripheral, what is it that I really needed deep down…? Somehow I felt out of touch with the happiness that I used to know. The heights I have reached before seemed so distant to me… as seemed starting to fade away from my memory…
Written by
Seh Hui Leong
Python programmer by trade, interested in a broad range of creative fields: illustrating, game design, writing, choreography and most recently building physical things. Described by a friend as a modern renaissance man.