Impromptu: 逞强 [Acting Forcifully Overconfident]

Seh Hui Leong

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当自己认为自己没什么大问题当时,实际上是如此吗? 虽然自己对人说“没问题”的那时,心中还是感到彷徨:仍然怀疑着自己以后是否还能支撑下去。

是担心未来的未知数吗?还是不能表露脆弱显得比较痛苦? 似乎自己坚强的背后,仍然还是希望得到一些关怀安慰;每一句话的背后,隐隐还是透漏些小小的期望。

The time when I think that I’m OK, is it really the case? Although when I say “no problem”, deep down I’m still feeling anxious: still suspicious whether I can still hold on like this in the future.

Is it that I’m worrying about the uncertainties of the future? Or is it that it’s more painful when I can’t show my fragility? Seems that behind my strong exterior, I’m still wishing to be cared and consoled; behind every sentence, there’s still some small hopes hidden behind them.

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Seh Hui Leong

Python programmer by trade, interested in a broad range of creative fields: illustrating, game design, writing, choreography and most recently building physical things. Described by a friend as a modern renaissance man.

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