“Others must be better than me”, all this while I have been having such a perception. Maybe it’s because of this perception, a lot of times I felt that all the effort I put into anything was just pointless… And therefore it started to became avoidance, timidity.
Life starting to lose its colours, I start to lose my own confidence, becoming less and less brave to take risks and change: This particular “self”… Although I despise it, but unconsciously I accepted that myself. Accepting a world full of crap… is this really something that I wanted?
This fact, is probably what I used not to like to admit it at all.