Is it really that important to get everything my way? Is it really that great that nothing bad happens?
Why the frustration? Is it that I’m unable to achieve what I wanted? Or is it that I’m feeling the anguish of how the external factors are out of my control?
Is it because that I feel defeated? Or is it that I’m swallowing the sour grape while I take no action to get what I wanted?
What is the difference between one’s desires and one’s life long goals? What’s the real meaning of hope…?
Somehow I’m feeling schizophrenic: As I feel like what I act differs from what I think/feel in my heart, especially those that involves the things that I cared for the most. Sometimes I feel like I had never earned any trust at all… myself included. Why all the insecurities…? What is it that I always made myself feeling so weak when I wanted to achieve the things that I wanted the most?