Today’s Drifting Thoughts: Catchers In The Light

1. 虽然说若不争取自己想要的东西，就永远都得不到，但是…自己渴望的东西总是要顾虑到很多人的立场，不能凭任性与自私的心态盲目追求。

   是懦弱吗…？是胆小吗…？但是我真的是不想做出无谓的伤害与牺牲，若是自己受伤还无所谓…

   …在感情的泛滥当时，我还不容易…把心中那个盖子关起来…

   说到底我只是在欺骗着自己…

2. 心中那朦胧的天气，总是带来那pH少过7的味道…还真的是希望一场泪雨可以让阳光灿烂的发光…但是想想看，那只是治标不治本吧？

   或许应该告诉自己：请不要在心中乱烧垃圾。

[Note: sorry for the lousy translation, it’s really hard to capture the Chinese like poetic essence in English]

1. Although they say that if you don’t sieze the things that you desired, you’ll never be able to get it forever, but… what I desired for is something that requires consideration of the situation and stand of a lot of different people, and it cannot be pursued blindly with selfish whims.

   Is this weakness…? Or is it timidity…? But I really don’t want to make any unneccessary harm and sacrifices, it’s OK if I’m the one who bears the pain…

   … At times when my feelings overflows, it takes me much effort… to close the lid of my heart…

   That being said, I’m just cheating myself…

2. That hazy weather inside, brings the feeling that has a pH less than 7… And I really hope that a rain of tears will let the sun shine through vibrantly… But thinking about it, maybe that’s only a stopgap measure?

   Maybe I should tell myself: Don’t burn more rubbish deep inside.