Poem: Together and Apart

Enough for my sadistic poems… I wrote this after I piece my fragmented thoughts towards what happened to a friend which I won’t be naming here, but if you know that you’re the one being mentioned (I know you knew), this piece is dedicated to you, specially. Sorry I had been a friend with the curse of fragmented thoughts (even the poem reads a little bit fragmented while I’m reading this), sorry I had been a didn’t process feelings soon enough to give any comfort, sorry I had been so far away… (And I’m terribly sorry if I picked the wrong words for this poem -_-“, my vocabulary is so limited I just don’t know what to write at times)

Other than that, this is also dedicated to all my friends who are reading my journal now, and I present you another (yup… ANOTHER) poem which I had written. Enjoy… and may everyone be blessed… and may unpleasantness be left behind…

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Today you were crying…
Every single bead of water from the shower
Is beating so hard it hurts
Yet the feeling is so warm…
You hoped that your tears will be washed away
But deep down… there’s tears that cannot be washed away…

Today I’m crying…
Every single pesky details which have no meaning
Is bugging me so much it hurts
Yet I’m feeling so blank…
I hoped that my pesky problems will go away
But deep down… there’s tears that cannot be wiped away

While walking down the streets
I feel so empty…
Everything is walking past me
But that doesn’t matter
My grumpy brain decides to flash these pesky matters
And I thought my existence is for the sake of existence…

While walking down the streets
Are you feeling empty?
Everything is walking past you
But that doesn’t matter
What are you thinking right now?
What you thought of yourself now?

Today… I saw you
And you only said “Hi”
And nothing else
I never asked “What’s the matter”

My brains are so filled up with unimportant matters
That blinds me from seeing anything except your poker face

Today… I bumped into something
Which shows the other side of you…
What are you feeling right now?
What are you experiencing right now?
Tears flowed down…
I hate feeling blind every time

Is it too late…
For me to extend my arms for you
As much I know it won’t reach you?
We are so far apart
Yet I wish that you can see me
Wishing to tell you that we are together

Today I’m feeling down
While I’m walking down the street
I finally saw my existence
While everything is walking past me
I know it’s far away from me
Yet I wish that I’m able to grab you from here

Is it too late…
For me to extend my arms for you
As much I know it won’t reach you?
We are so far apart
Yet I wish that you can sense me
Wishing to tell you that I’m there for you

Friends can be gone and forgotten
Just like everything that walked past you and me
I wish I can be of any help
To be around you while you’re feeling down
Even though we are so far apart
But as long we are together… I promise…

Friends can be gone and forgotten
Just like everything that walked past you and me
I wish I can be of any help
To be around you with my arms extended for you
Even though we are so far apart
But as long we are together… I’m there… for you