Poem: Dreaming Awake

Dreaming Awake

“Today is just another day,”
I said to myself just like every other day
Since when I hated to open my eyes
And continue with my dreamy state?

Countless time I had fallen
Yet countless time I’m able to stand up
Since when I’m afraid to fall down
Although the next pain is getting less painful every time?

I feel that I’m living a lie
Where all my true self are in hides
Since when I have been ignoring the emptiness inside
And acted as if everything is fine?

Every time I wanted you to be my side
Yet every time you get closer I get further
Is it that I wanted to be that way?
Or is it that I’m afraid to be hurt again?

Please tell me that you are a dream
But you’re already standing in front of me
Is it that you’re always too perfect?
Or is it just me who is shying away from everything?

Please wake me up from my dreamy state
But I’m already wide awake
Is it that I’m afraid of being hurt again?
Or is it that I’m already getting used to the emptiness inside me?

Please wake me up from my dreamy state
But I’m already wide awake
Since when… I feel that I have to live in my dreams?
Or is it that I have been shadowed by my own dreams…?

Please wake me up from my dreamy state
But I’m already wide awake…

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Inspiration came from Ayumi’s ANGEL’S SONG and some of my painful but beautiful past that I wish that I’m able to bury away without regrets. I do wish I’m able to be more realistic, but yet I’m still living in my own dreamy state… Perhaps I should set my own priorities…

May all lonesome travellers of life be blessed.